song that i wrote SO long ago

[ifonlykisses]

This pain is much too great
For me to handle by myself
This hateful energy wraps around my lonely heart
This hurt abuses me
Strangles me
Smothers me
I feel so locked away
i gotta say
i need to say

Something
i can not go on not doing
Somthing
Without, poisons my entirety
Something
Something must be going on
my feelings drift away
and i knew it all along

A draft of coldness seems to close in all around myself
A flash of darkness and the vile falls from my mouth
These thoughts fall over me
They overcome
Cant feel my lips
Cant move my tounge
My body falls
it hits the ground
My arms pull me up
Screams are the sound
So i must do...

Something
i can not go on not doing
Somthing
Without, poisons my entirety
Something
Something must be going on
My feelings eat away as i
i am left alone

...something
i need you to say something
these drops fall from the sky
they are my tears
...something
my hands the grasp at where they say you fall
the blood drips from your eyes
and i know that i can not say

Something
i can not move
so i do
Nothing
so i choke on my entirety
Nothing
Nothing is left inside of myself
and so i long for you as your whispers ive inside my shell

...Something....Somthing...Something left of you

somthing i wrote about a year ago.
So today was really annoying because everyones siding with ashley and i want to hit her....blah
+JiL