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I am confused crazy mess of a lazy blob. Yes. That is me. No motivation, no determination. No incentive to try for anything but the attention of one boy who really would rather that I didn't, I am sure. Can't help it. What a copp out.
Can't help it is a lie. Problem is, I don't want to help it. And I think that everything that I am doing right now is a waste of time. A waste of breath and a waste of life. I just don't know hat else to do, so I am going to keep on doing it. But I am doing very very poorly. Not Very very poorly, that is dramatic. But for one who usually won't accept half-assed commitment, I have certainly been putting forth a lot of half-assed work in a lot of my classes. Not Acting. Never Acting.
Bleh. Why is it that the one thing I want seems to be the thing I cannot have. Stupid girl, puts herself in stupid situations.
Can't help it is a lie. Problem is, I don't want to help it. And I think that everything that I am doing right now is a waste of time. A waste of breath and a waste of life. I just don't know hat else to do, so I am going to keep on doing it. But I am doing very very poorly. Not Very very poorly, that is dramatic. But for one who usually won't accept half-assed commitment, I have certainly been putting forth a lot of half-assed work in a lot of my classes. Not Acting. Never Acting.
Bleh. Why is it that the one thing I want seems to be the thing I cannot have. Stupid girl, puts herself in stupid situations.