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Wow, Haven't updated this thing since February. Life is soooo much different now.
Right now I feel like I could do just about anything. It hurts my heart to leave everyone behind again. However, it really feels right to go to Missoula. Staying here in Bismarck would be coasting. I would be settling back into the familiar. I would get some crap job that I would hate and waste a lot of time. Nothing is more beautiful than loving people, but it is so painful. I want to be so close to all of them, but I have to choose. I have to decide what is best for my own growth and needs. And that means leaving them here again. I am blessed to have more more true friends than any person on earth has a right to.
I wish I had a magic tool that could stop time. A single moment could last forever and i could just exist in it until I had breathed in every bit of life it has to offer.
I am so silly and dramatic in the middle of the night.
Right now I feel like I could do just about anything. It hurts my heart to leave everyone behind again. However, it really feels right to go to Missoula. Staying here in Bismarck would be coasting. I would be settling back into the familiar. I would get some crap job that I would hate and waste a lot of time. Nothing is more beautiful than loving people, but it is so painful. I want to be so close to all of them, but I have to choose. I have to decide what is best for my own growth and needs. And that means leaving them here again. I am blessed to have more more true friends than any person on earth has a right to.
I wish I had a magic tool that could stop time. A single moment could last forever and i could just exist in it until I had breathed in every bit of life it has to offer.
I am so silly and dramatic in the middle of the night.