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I don't know what to do. I have fought for this, haven't I? I have given up so much for this, haven't I? I have made decisions based on this, haven't I? So can I really just let it go? Should I let it go? If I spent all this time working for this, waiting for this, if as soon as I get it and it doesn't all snap into place, is that a good enough reason to pack my bags and leave? I finally want to sit down. I finally have enough reason to change, and I feel like he isn't willing to settle with me. I don't know what he worked so hard for if there is nothing happening right now. He told me I mean alot to him, but I'm not seeing it. What am I missing? What am I waiting for? Will it ever work out?