summer never looked so grey
but then, not everyone knows what they want, and less of what they
need. i'd like to think that i know what i want, at least on certain
matters. we all know what our end result should be, it just takes some
time to work out the quirks. we are all ready if we think we are. and
more so if we know it. but its when we are doubted in our
readiness....that we become doubtful ourselves. i do know what i want
in all of this. well...perhaps not ALL, but in this, yes. everytime
around is different and no less colorful than the last. ..just
differently colored. by simply living you know, and by knowing you
experience. probably should have bitten my tongue on this one, it burns
like a raging fire. but sometimes the bitter use of brutality is the
only weapon again blatant dishonesty. maybe i'm the one who's wrong.
i'm so upset and hurt, i'm not even sure what to say because i cant
even tell if its getting through. i dunno. i feel so drained. it like
my heart is heavier and my lungs are full with water.
okay i'm gonna stop now...go take a breather...maybe a nap before the
world becomes to heavy for one day.
at least i am smiling now. at least i am smiling.