friends come and die but hopefull last longer than 2 months
for once i;m not depressed. I dont feel incredibly stupid. and my feet arent cold.
today i got to school and upon arrival found that apparently someone had broken into the school, or at least the window was broken and there were rumors of a bomb threat. no one was allowed past the parking lot. which is kinda stupid considering if there was a bomb we'd all die anyway, whats the difference in being a few feet closer so you can die quicker. anyway so parking nazi told us that school ad a two hour delay, so i rounded a bunch of people up, not before calling 12 news with the breaking news story, which was promptly on the evening news, and went to waffle house. We had the place packed. Wyatt and I took backpacks and cd players out of every car that was unlocked. sometiems its fun being stupid. I had a cup of coffee and was off to play football at annie's house.
K so i fucking suck at sports. only when i play with my friends. with other people i;m decent but with my friends i always fucking screw-up. its just gonna happen. i fumbled the ball at least 4 times before i caught a redemption interception. and now i'm sore as anything. but i enjoyed it.
None of us could find anything else better to do than go back to school so a bunch of people went back to school after footbal. i didnt
i went to check on Cody beacuse he was sitting sick at home watching some sweet movie about knights and musims and stuff. it was really a decent movie. his mom is weird. but shes a good mom. better than my mom. but dosent everybody think that about thier friends moms?
i went to jackie b. house where everyone was smoking. I dunno i just cant get into the smell of weed. it kinda just wigs me out. i'd much rather drink than smoke. i then went to short hump and then home to change from football.
erica and ane and rachel and abunch of people were supposed to meet me there and i even said on the phone how much it would suck to go all the way into short pump and them not come and they didnt come.
you know,though, i kinda expected that, which is kinda sad, beacuse i know its rare at my age to meet someone who holds good to their word, who wont abandon you, and who wont leave you hanging for a beter opportunity. some people i just expect it of, and i have been proven right. on more than one occasion.I try to remember that and not do it to other people and i wish others would do the same. ah in a perfect world.
do i come off stupid or cliche or fucking retarded? sometimes it seems like i do and i catch myself. do i want to end up just being myself and being stupid, or do i catch myself and try to mold into somehting i wan tto be? where is the line between being something your not and changing to be the person you want to be? Who decides "who you are"? does it matter. I think in the bigger picture probably not.
why did i look in the cabinet for somehting i knew wasnt in there?
habit can destory everything.
i gave julie a flower.
it made me feel good.
clayton e.
today i got to school and upon arrival found that apparently someone had broken into the school, or at least the window was broken and there were rumors of a bomb threat. no one was allowed past the parking lot. which is kinda stupid considering if there was a bomb we'd all die anyway, whats the difference in being a few feet closer so you can die quicker. anyway so parking nazi told us that school ad a two hour delay, so i rounded a bunch of people up, not before calling 12 news with the breaking news story, which was promptly on the evening news, and went to waffle house. We had the place packed. Wyatt and I took backpacks and cd players out of every car that was unlocked. sometiems its fun being stupid. I had a cup of coffee and was off to play football at annie's house.
K so i fucking suck at sports. only when i play with my friends. with other people i;m decent but with my friends i always fucking screw-up. its just gonna happen. i fumbled the ball at least 4 times before i caught a redemption interception. and now i'm sore as anything. but i enjoyed it.
None of us could find anything else better to do than go back to school so a bunch of people went back to school after footbal. i didnt
i went to check on Cody beacuse he was sitting sick at home watching some sweet movie about knights and musims and stuff. it was really a decent movie. his mom is weird. but shes a good mom. better than my mom. but dosent everybody think that about thier friends moms?
i went to jackie b. house where everyone was smoking. I dunno i just cant get into the smell of weed. it kinda just wigs me out. i'd much rather drink than smoke. i then went to short hump and then home to change from football.
erica and ane and rachel and abunch of people were supposed to meet me there and i even said on the phone how much it would suck to go all the way into short pump and them not come and they didnt come.
you know,though, i kinda expected that, which is kinda sad, beacuse i know its rare at my age to meet someone who holds good to their word, who wont abandon you, and who wont leave you hanging for a beter opportunity. some people i just expect it of, and i have been proven right. on more than one occasion.I try to remember that and not do it to other people and i wish others would do the same. ah in a perfect world.
do i come off stupid or cliche or fucking retarded? sometimes it seems like i do and i catch myself. do i want to end up just being myself and being stupid, or do i catch myself and try to mold into somehting i wan tto be? where is the line between being something your not and changing to be the person you want to be? Who decides "who you are"? does it matter. I think in the bigger picture probably not.
why did i look in the cabinet for somehting i knew wasnt in there?
habit can destory everything.
i gave julie a flower.
it made me feel good.
clayton e.