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Tonight I typed a gushy email to my chiropractor/coach. He is so great, ever patient. If Haresh is to be my second husband then I want Dr. P to be my third.
I now teach yoga at the YMCA, 2 different branches actually and have subbed at three of the four. I also teach 2 classes at the YWCA. I am facilitating a preK book club at our resource center and hubby and I are leading a group at a Milwaukee Adoption Resource center every other weekend. My yoga teacher had me sit in at the last teacher meeting and announced that I was working with her and could be available for subbing.
My OA stuff fallen second. I know Yoga is my passion and I needed to follow that bliss. Unfortunately 10 pounds have crept back on, but I am still sugar free. I don't know how I am gaining weight because I do yoga every day, sometimes as much as three classes a day and am still eating the same amount. Must be the stuff I am eating. It is so damn hard to make good food choices even when choosing from good foods (and I mean healthy foods!)
I am feeling a little elderly these days--I cannot read my computer screen with my glasses so I usually put my glasses on the top of my head, but the other day I had a pen behind my ear and glasses on top besides makes everything fall because my hair is so short and apparently my ears are small. I set my glasses down on my desk and when I was done, I had to call my hubby to help me find the glasses that were right next to me on my desk that I couldn't see because I didn't have my glasses on. I ordered a leash from my beading girlfriend the very next day!
No foster kids for us for a while and I think I am happy. I have been entertaining thoughts still of leaving my husband. he is a great friend, a pretty good co-parent, I just don't feel the love which makes me wonder if I ever did? Last time I saw Haresh my feelings for him had fizzled a bit, too. Maybe it is my obsession with yoga and self or this new crush on Dr. P, or maybe it's just a new phase. After 43 years I have finally learned that I shouldn't make any decisions that one might consider important during menstruation. I'm a flippin nut bag sometimes! I got my period today and told myself I was only going to pamper myself to not go off on some weird tangent offering to teach another class or help someone when I had no time. so I took a yoga class, got a pedicure, bought things to make for dinner (but then decided that I didn't feel like cooking for anyone when no one cooks for me, find your own food) and got myself thai takeout for lunch! I watched the movie the Holiday instead of cooking and now am taking the time to write. Unfortunately I have a period headache and everyone is upstairs so when I finally decide to go to bed, it will be all "Hey, watch me do this!"
My hubby has worked out on his weight bench three times now. that is over the course of two weeks. He told me yesterday that he felt stronger and that he had tightened his belt one hole. I have to be supportive, but omg! It has taken me years to get stronger and thinner and I am supposed to be doing backflips? I am so tired of making our relationship boat float. I want to be with someone who makes me feel beautiful, not groped.