its that time of the m.. year again
last year, i was hopeful for the future.
this year, im not even sure. ive begun to take things as they come, but i will need a bit more .... motivation? to act out like the person im not. just talking can be tough, because i dont really like people/strangers.
and i dont like having to carry a relationship when i can feel the effort. i suppose its not that often i can feel the effort, so when i do it must be pretty bad.
anyway, today is free movie night. going to see district 13 pre-screening thing. i might meet my friend's current love interest. should be interesting.
i want a love interest. lol.... l...l.... yeah.
the restaurant i will likely be going to for valentines day with a friend of mine says its like.. 190$/person or something. well, its not just valentines really but a celebration of her admission into a japanese university graduate program. i hope shes willing to pay a little, but we shall see. after all, next week i am seeing...:
kooza. having done cirque a few times, tapis rouge is the way to go. unfortunately it costs an arm and a leg. its a shame that i cant bring someone i *really want* to go with me. instead, im taking someone who will go with me, but has been a pain in the ass to wrangle. at the very least, i can probably have a few drinks with her and hold her hand at the show. almost like an actual date. fun times.... that is, unless that falls through. then ill have to find someone on short notice. i wonder if i know anybody who would go.
theres something that people are going to be saying next week that i dont want them to unless they mean it. but im always like that. dont say it cause you should. say it cause you want to. preemptive strike is in order.
this weekend was originally a weekend to do stuff. now i dunno.
this thursday was originally a day to do stuff, but it fell through.
sunday may be the same.
well, at least i have friends and endless distraction from disappointment. its really too bad i dont like being disappointed.
this year, im not even sure. ive begun to take things as they come, but i will need a bit more .... motivation? to act out like the person im not. just talking can be tough, because i dont really like people/strangers.
and i dont like having to carry a relationship when i can feel the effort. i suppose its not that often i can feel the effort, so when i do it must be pretty bad.
anyway, today is free movie night. going to see district 13 pre-screening thing. i might meet my friend's current love interest. should be interesting.
i want a love interest. lol.... l...l.... yeah.
the restaurant i will likely be going to for valentines day with a friend of mine says its like.. 190$/person or something. well, its not just valentines really but a celebration of her admission into a japanese university graduate program. i hope shes willing to pay a little, but we shall see. after all, next week i am seeing...:
kooza. having done cirque a few times, tapis rouge is the way to go. unfortunately it costs an arm and a leg. its a shame that i cant bring someone i *really want* to go with me. instead, im taking someone who will go with me, but has been a pain in the ass to wrangle. at the very least, i can probably have a few drinks with her and hold her hand at the show. almost like an actual date. fun times.... that is, unless that falls through. then ill have to find someone on short notice. i wonder if i know anybody who would go.
theres something that people are going to be saying next week that i dont want them to unless they mean it. but im always like that. dont say it cause you should. say it cause you want to. preemptive strike is in order.
this weekend was originally a weekend to do stuff. now i dunno.
this thursday was originally a day to do stuff, but it fell through.
sunday may be the same.
well, at least i have friends and endless distraction from disappointment. its really too bad i dont like being disappointed.