Oct 06, 2004 19:09
wow, today pretty much sucked. i dont really wanna go into it, but this is my way of letting out my feelings i guess. tomorrow should be pretty cool, goin to the fair with the gf and others. friday, im not completely sure what im doin, but hopefully im goin with the girlfriend and her mother doing numerous errands, most guys dont like it, but i do, i dunno why, i guess its just one of those things that makes me weird. i dont mind where we are if im with her. i mean kara, not her mom, gross. ha. i havent really had an in-depth post in a looooong time, i guess i havent had anything to say. im really confused at where i am in life right now, but most of us are knowing we are teenagers and stuff, but damn, am i supposed to be THIS confused, if i am sure with one thing about my life, i am completely sure that i am IN LOVE with Kara Jene Hoffman, no lie. There has never been anybody that has cared for me like her, cared about my school, cared about how im doing, loves me unconditionally no matter what. She may not like me too much sometimes, hell, i dont even like myself sometimes, but she sticks with me. And all of you who are my really good friends, you guys gotta know i wouldnt have come this far without each and every one of you. without you people, life for me would be shit. I guess i should just go with Mr. Durdens(Bradd pitt in fight club if you are a total moron) philosophy of life, whatever happens happens, just let go, try not to control everything, and just let it be. Wow, beattles song. ha. im a loser. Damn, i got punched today, like seriously, that shit hurt like fuck. Im still feeling it a little bit. i got hit in the left cheek, that person that hit me(shall remain anonymous) got written up, and rightfully so, i mean damn. but yeah, i guess im done with this long ass update.
Kara- wow, you have changed my life, you have showed me what happiness is, you my love, are the epitamy of everything good in my life, you are the one that catches me if i fall, picks me back up, i only hope to do the same for you someday, you deserve everything good that comes your way, even if im not involved. i love you sweetheart, and thank you for everything you have done for me.