100 Questions
Part 1: The Basics
Questions from here.
What is your full name?
Jessi Kaori Jackson, born Lily Yoshiko Fuchizaki.
Where and when were you born?
May 5th, 1987 in Simi Valley Hospital, California.
Who are/were your parents? (Know their names, occupations, personalities, etc.)
My parents are Ken and Midori Fuchizaki. My father is an angel of knowledge, and ruled the household. My mother is a healing angel and did her best to keep the house patched together. My father was quick to get angry, but my mother was always able to keep her calm, even when she was incredibly angry. It wasn't until I was much older that I knew she was ever angry at all.
Do you have any siblings? What are/were they like?
Yes, I have an older sister and an older brother. I didn't get to know my older sister, Jane, until I was much older because we have a pretty big age gap (eight years), but she's probably the most supportive of me. She's pretty sweet and silly, and always has a hug in store. She's a huge eater, too, and way sportier than anyone in the family approved of. Dad blames public school for that. She's currently cut off from the family because she's unwilling to play their games. My brother, on the other hand, is calm and manipulative, but that's really the only way he knows how to interact. He's two years older than me, and while I love him dearly, he's incredibly difficult to live with. He's my second ward, and ever since I ran into him again, he's been doing a lot better. Sometimes, I worry my influence on him was the reason he did some of the things he did. I hope I don't make that mistake again.
Where do you live now, and with whom? Describe the place and the person/people.
I currently live with my two-year-old son Justin in an apartment in downtown Chicago, directly under my brother's apartment. It's way nicer than I could ever afford, but I need to live close to Kaden, and he makes way more money than me, so. I've got way too much furniture, but that's because I moved from my house to the apartment, so yeah, way too much. It's also pretty messy, except when I know people are going to come over, and then it's clean as can be. It's mostly cluttered, really, with my school stuff and all of Justin's stuff.
What is your occupation?
Until recently, I was an assistant store manager at Whole Foods. Due to unfortunate circumstances, I no longer have that job. I have been offered a job working at the local homeless shelter, however, I'm still considering. Kaden feels like he should be able to take care of me; he's always been that way about money. He also feels like I should be focusing more on school, and while I agree with him, I'm not sure I'm entirely comfortable with him taking full care of me financially.
Write a full physical description of yourself. You might want to consider factors such as: height, weight, race, hair and eye color, style of dress, and any tattoos, scars, or distinguishing marks.
Um. I'm really short (four foot ten and a half inches, although I claim four eleven most of the time) and have long-ish black hair, usually with blonde highlights. I'm pretty skinny, although I could afford to lose a bit of weight. I have black wings that are small and pretty fluffy. My eyes are black and... I have good fashion sense? I don't know. Oh. Right. I'm Japanese.
To which social class do you belong?
I was born into the upper-upper class, but at 18, I was shoved right into the middle class. I was somewhere around lower-middle class, taking care of Justin, and I guess now that my brother's back in my life again, I'm upper-upper class again. My family has so much money it's obscene and disgusting.
Do you have any allergies, diseases, or other physical weaknesses?
This is a giant secret, but I have horrible vision. No one will ever, ever see me in glasses. I would rather stumble around blindly than wear glasses. They just look awful on me! I also am not able to pull my wings back in, but that's more an annoyance than a disease. I'm lactose intolerant and allergic to penicillin.
Are you right- or left-handed?
Right-handed.
What does your voice sound like?
Way higher pitched than I'd like it to be, and it tends to keep going up in pitch as I talk. Kind of squeaky. I've heard it's not annoying squeaky, though?
What words and/or phrases do you use very frequently?
Um... I don't really? No, that's a lie. I choose my words pretty carefully, and try to mix them up, but I do have an awful habit of overusing "well," "so" and "anyways."
What do you have in your pockets?
Nothing! I don't usually have pockets, considering I usually wear skirts. My purse, however, has mace, some old receipts, my wallet (which has my debit cards, various non-profit cards, some cash, pictures of Justin and of James, some business cards, some more old receipts, and what looks like the wrapper to a hard candy), a pair of clean pantyhose, clear nail polish, red nail polish, lipstick, blush, concealer, eye shadow, mascara, lip gloss, eyeliner, lip liner, some base, brushes, floss, mouth wash, both sets of car keys, and some grit at the bottom that I have no idea what is. ...I should probably get rid of that.
Do you have any quirks, strange mannerisms, annoying habits, or other defining characteristics?
Um. I have a tendency to just shut down when I don't like where a situation is going. I also have little to no sense of personal space, even though I freak out when being unexpectedly touched, no sense of privacy, and a bad habit of learning that the world isn't the way I think it is. At all.
- Part 2: Growing Up
- Part 2: Growing Up
How would you describe your childhood in general?
Difficult. I had a hard time relating to my father. My mother coddled me, which only made things more difficult with my father. My brother took the most care of me, although he often had difficulty showing his affection in healthy ways. I also got into a lot of scrapes as a kid. That's what happens when you summer in the woods, though. I wasn't the best kid in the world, either, which didn't help the situation, I guess.
What is your earliest memory?
Unfortunately, my earliest memory is of a fight between my parents. I was in Kaden's room, hiding under the covers, and my dad was yelling and then I just heard a smack and then everything went quiet. I must have been two or three. Honestly, my entire childhood is a bit blurry, so I don't know.
How much schooling have you had?
I went to an angel only prep school from 4-18. I did not graduate high school, as due to an unfortunate situation, I had to leave home before I graduated. I did, however, get my GED, and am currently a junior at the University of Chicago, after working my way up through community college. I plan on going into the school of social work after I graduate.
Did you enjoy school?
Yes and no. School came naturally to me, but my entire life revolved around how well I did academically, so it made it rather stressful. School was an escape from home, though, one of the few approved escapes, so yes, I enjoyed it that way. I was also rather popular, even though I didn't really like most of my friends.
Where did you learn most of your skills and other abilities?
I don't really have many non-academic skills. The few I do have, I've just picked up along the way because there really wasn't another choice.
While growing up, did you have any role models? If so, describe them.
Role models were discouraged. It's impossible to truly create something new and ingenious if you're just looking to the work of others. Secretly, I loved Madonna. Well, perhaps not so secret. But I kind of wanted to be a success like her. On my own terms.
While growing up, how did you get along with the other members of your family?
Umm. Well enough for appearances. My dad had a lot of anger problems, like I said, so things were tough with him. He was very encouraging of me, although he used a lot more negative reinforcement than positive. But I kind of needed it? My mom coddled me like crazy. I was very clearly her favorite. She didn't even bother to hide it. My brother and I were also really close, even though we had a kind of awkward relationship.
As a child, what did you want to be when you grew up?
A scientist. Although, to be honest, when I was little, I didn't know there were other options.
As a child, what were your favorite activities?
Going to the library. Reading. Mostly non-fiction. I did some birdwatching. I loved home science experiments.
As a child, what kinds of personality traits did you display?
Up until high school, I was kind of submissive and meek. A pushover. I was still a pushover in high school in some ways, but I wasn't as blatant about it. I was the nice girl, in everyone's mind. I was incredibly helpful.
As a child, were you popular? Who were your friends, and what were they like?
Although I was a geek, I wasn't really treated like one in high school, except when my friends needed help with their homework. I was rather popular. I had a huge net of friends, although a lot of them I was nice to, but didn't really like. I didn't have very many close friends, but the few I did have were male. There was Daniel, who was pretty cool. He was a football player, but really smart. He had a really bad habit of dating girls who really sucked, though. He would get really torn up about it when they'd mess with him, too.
When and with whom was your first kiss?
My husband at 18.
Are you a virgin? If not, when and with whom did you lose your virginity?
That would be rather difficult, considering I'm a mother. I lost my virginity to my husband (although he wasn't my husband at the time) at 18.
If you are a supernatural being (i.e. mage, werewolf, vampire), tell the story of how you became what you are or first learned of your own abilities. If you are just a normal human, describe any influences in your past that led you to do the things you do today.
I am an angel, specifically a guardian angel. Like all angels, I got my wings on my sixteenth birthday. Unfortunately for me, that was also the date of Kaden's high school graduation. I had honestly forgotten it was my birthday, like most other people in the family, as I hadn't had good enough grades in some time to celebrate it. And getting your wings is pretty painful, so I wasn't able to get to the graduation. I wasn't really able to get up off the floor. So I got in trouble for that, but really, I mostly got in trouble because I wasn't an angel of knowledge, which, in the eyes of the family made me a failure. I was a guardian angel instead, which was just embarrassing. Kaden was pretty decent to me that day, even though I had screwed everything up. He did drag me out to a party that I didn't want to deal with and got into a fight, but it was his graduation. He drugged me up plenty before I went anyway, so it was fine.
- Part 3: Past Influences
What do you consider the most important event of your life so far?
Getting out of my house and getting to Chicago. I don't even know who I would be if I had remained at home, but I am rather sure I would not like to be that person.
Who has had the most influence on you?
My brother. I would like to believe that James had the most influence on me, but that would be kidding myself.
What do you consider your greatest achievement?
My son.
What is your greatest regret?
Hurting my brother the way I did. I don't know if I can ever repair his trust. It was probably the most selfish thing I've ever done. But I had to do it. I hope that someday he can see that.
What is the most evil thing you have ever done?
Ummm. I don't really think I've ever done anything really evil. I'm not always the best at judging that, anyway. I grew up in a family that encouraged me to think of good and evil as mind exercises, not as you know, morality. But I guess it could be argued that the most evil thing I've ever done was... Um. Wow. I'd say that it was leaving my brother again, but still, I don't think that was evil, just selfish.
Do you have a criminal record of any kind?
No.
When was the time you were the most frightened?
February 9th, 1997.
What is the most embarrassing thing ever to happen to you?
Probably falling down the steps of the Chicago bus station and having my luggage fall down with me. Of course one of them burst open, and flung my panties everywhere. It was horrible.
If you could change one thing from your past, what would it be, and why?
I would be an angel of knowledge, because my life would have been much easier.
What is your best memory?
My most embarrassing memory, actually! Because the thing that happened next was Mr. James Jackson, my ward and husband-to-be picked up one very frilly, very pink pair of panties and said, "Are these yours, miss?" I wouldn't be who I am today if he hadn't.
What is your worst memory?
Some of the harder times I had with my brother.
- Part 4: Beliefs And Opinions
Are you basically optimistic or pessimistic?
100% optimistic!
What is your greatest fear?
Abandonment.
What are your religious views?
Athiest.
What are your political views?
Very, very liberal.
What are your views on sex?
I don't really think a lot about sex? If people want to have sex and they're two consenting adults, that's fine.
Are you able to kill? Under what circumstances do you find killing to be acceptable or unacceptable?
No, I don't think I could bring myself to hurt another person. I do not think there are any circumstances where killing is really acceptable. I think if there was no other choice in self defense that's one thing. Well, no, that's not true. I could kill someone. If they threatened my son.
In your opinion, what is the most evil thing any human being could do?
I don't think there are "things" that are evil. If anything is evil, it is intents. And I'm not honestly sure I believe evil exists at all.
Do you believe in the existence of soul mates and/or true love?
Yes. I found mine. Unfortunately, I wasn't given enough time with him.
What do you believe makes a successful life?
Taking care of the people around you. Making sure everyone you know and love is happy. Doing what you love. Loving your life.
How honest are you about your thoughts and feelings (i.e. do you hide your true self from others, and in what way)?
I am not very honest about my thoughts and feelings most of the time. I don't feel like I need to burden other people with my worries. They have enough of their own problems, I'm sure.
Do you have any biases or prejudices?
Embarrassingly, yes. However, they're on purpose! It's got a lot to do with how I was raised and not knowing any better! I really do try. I'm both mildly racist and homophobic although I really am trying to be better! And it's not like I would let anyone in on... yeah. I also have a tendency to be a bit angel-supremest. But I grew up with only angels of knowledge, and yeah.
Is there anything you absolutely refuse to do under any circumstances? Why do you refuse to do it?
Um. This is kind of a weird question. I refuse to let anyone who isn't Mariah, myself, or my daycare take care of my son because I can't afford to lose him.
Who or what, if anything, would you die for (or otherwise go to extremes for)?
My brother and my son.
- Part 5: Relationships With Others
In general, how do you treat others (politely, rudely, by keeping them at a distance, etc.)? Does your treatment of them change depending on how well you know them, and if so, how?
I am rather polite, and helpful. Apparently I try to solve everyone's problems. And I treat about all people equally. Well, that's not true. I treat my brother a little bit differently than I treat everyone else. But we're also ridiculously, creepily close, so.
Who is the most important person in your life, and why?
My son because he's my son, and also, the only thing I have left of James.
Who is the person you respect the most, and why?
Um. I'm not really sure how to answer this.
Who are your friends? Do you have a best friend? Describe these people.
Oh, wow, that would be a lot of people! There are the folks down at the homeless shelter and the retirement community, of course. And then there's the folks down at the station. And I can't forget Presley, even if he's been way too busy lately. And then there's um. Too many to count. They're all super nice people, though!
Do you have a spouse or significant other? If so, describe this person.
I'm kind of dating someone. I'm not sure. Danny Smalls. He's kind of a jerk to most people, but he's the sweetest person in the world to me and my son. He makes me feel special, and like a better person than I feel most of the time. And my son loves him, and he seems to care about my son. He also reminds me a lot of my late husband. He's looking out for me, which is something I kind of need. He's a really special person.
Have you ever been in love? If so, describe what happened.
Yup! I fell in love with my ward, which is way awkward and a bad thing. Didn't stop me from marrying him. (Although, granted, it was a shotgun wedding.) But it was a gradual thing. I was living with him and well, he was a great guy and really sensitive and cared about me.
What do you look for in a potential lover?
I don't really? I find love where it is.
How close are you to your family?
Not very. I cut off all contact when I ran away, except for the postcards I would mail Jane. This is about to change, though, as my family has family gatherings twice a year (at Easter and Christmas, which would be weird, considering we're godless heathens, but we're also academics) and I'm my brother's ward and he's going to them, so I have to go. I have a feeling things are going to be strained either way because I kind of destroyed any hope my family had in me. I'm probably only even allowed to go to the gatherings because I'm Kaden's ward.
Have you started your own family? If so, describe them. If not, do you want to? Why or why not?
Yup! I married James Jackson November 17th, 2005. Unfortunately, he passed away shortly after we married, but I do have my almost four-year-old son Justin still with me. He is the cutest, most adorable little brat on the planet, so help me god. I would love to try and build a family again.
Who would you turn to if you were in desperate need of help?
My brother.
Do you trust anyone to protect you? Who, and why?
My brother because he is very, very overprotective of me.
If you died or went missing, who would miss you?
I'm pretty sure a lot of people! Mariah, the folks at the homeless shelter and retirement community, Presley, Danny, Kaden, Jane, Mom, Dad, maybe, … Molly wouldn't, uh, Michael, Clark... Lots of people, basically!
Who is the person you despise the most, and why?
I don't despise anyone.
Do you tend to argue with people, or avoid conflict?
I always avoid conflict.
Do you tend to take on leadership roles in social situations?
I am not comfortable in leadership roles.
Do you like interacting with large groups of people? Why or why not?
Yup! I love people and I'm really good at social interaction. And besides, it's really fun to figure out how everyone knows each other and interacts. Parties and large groups of people in general are just awesome to study.
Do you care what others think of you?
Yes and no. I put a lot of stock into my physical appearance and I avoid conflict a lot. I think I would be hurt if someone I cared about thought poorly of me. I'm not so sure I would care if a stranger thought poorly of me.
- Part 6: Likes And Dislikes
What is/are your favorite hobbies and pastimes?
Hahaha. Hobbies. I don't really have time for hobbies right now. Oh, the last time I got to read a book because I wanted to read it. Squeezing in time for my volunteer work right now, even without a job is difficult. And then there's trying to find time to see Danny.
What is your most treasured possession?
My wedding rings.
What is your favorite color?
Red.
What is your favorite food?
Chicken breast.
What, if anything, do you like to read?
I love non-fiction. I can devour non-fiction all day long. Honestly, fiction doesn't hold my interest. I have probably read less than five novels I wasn't required to read for school.
What is your idea of good entertainment (consider music, movies, art, etc.)?
Documentaries are nice. I prefer doing things with people.
Do you smoke, drink, or use drugs? If so, why? Do you want to quit?
I don't smoke. I do drink, but it's not really a problem. I do not use drugs. I did enough drugs in high school. I don't need to do more.
How do you spend a typical Saturday night?
Studying.
What makes you laugh?
It's pretty easy to make me laugh, honestly. I also have a tendency to laugh off sad things.
What, if anything, shocks or offends you?
It's pretty hard to shock or offend me, but crimes against children do that.
What would you do if you had insomnia and had to find something to do to amuse yourself?
...I have insomnia. And I study.
How do you deal with stress?
Drinking.
Are you spontaneous, or do you always need to have a plan?
I need to have a plan. I don't have time for spontaneous things anyway.
What are your pet peeves?
I don't really have pet peeves. It's unfair to other people.
- Part 7: Self Images And Etc.
Describe the routine of a normal day for you. How do you feel when this routine is disrupted?
I wake up at six am. I shower, get dressed, do my makeup, get Justin out of bed, get him dressed, feed him, do my hair while he's being fed, leave the house around eight thirty, drop him off at daycare, go to class, drop by the homeless shelter around lunch to help serve, go back to school, study, go and pick up Justin back from daycare, go home, feed Justin, study more, read him stories, do some studying with him. Study more. Go to sleep around two am, if I'm lucky. There's also lots of coffee involved here. Lots of coffee. And I don't do well when my schedule's messed up at all. I freak out and have to fix everything and yeah. It's bad.
What is your greatest strength as a person?
I don't really have a lot of strengths. Uh, I'd probably go with my ability to assess other people's problems.
What is your greatest weakness?
Academics.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
I'd be an angel of knowledge.
Are you generally introverted or extroverted?
Introverted.
Are you generally organized or messy?
Cluttered, but organized. Things that are important are organized.
Name three things you consider yourself to be very good at, and three things you consider yourself to be very bad at.
Oh, this is hard.
I'm good at: helping people, being a mom, and working
I'm bad at: math, science, and standing up for myself
Do you like yourself?
Not really.
What are your reasons for being an adventurer (or doing the strange and heroic things that RPG characters do)? Are your real reasons for doing this different than the ones you tell people in public? (If so, detail both sets of reasons...)
I don't really do any heroic things. I'm just a person.
What goal do you most want to accomplish in your lifetime?
I want to raise a successful and happy son.
Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
Still in Chicago, that's for sure. I'd honestly like to see myself with Danny still. Married. Maybe with another kid. Or two. But I mean, that's a long time in the future. We'll see how things go. Especially considering Chicago. Obviously Kaden will still be in my life. Hopefully doing even better than he is now. Yeah. I'd really like to have a family again.
If you could choose, how would you want to die?
I just want to die before my son, lover, or ward dies. I can't take losing someone like that again.
If you knew you were going to die in 24 hours, name three things you would do in the time you had left.
I wouldn't really do things. I would spend those twenty four hours with the people I love.
What is the one thing for which you would most like to be remembered after your death?
A good mother, good wife, good friend.
What three words best describe your personality?
Cute, silly, nice.
What three words would others probably use to describe you?
...cute, silly, nice?
If you could, what advice would you, the player, give to your character? (You might even want to speak as if he or she were sitting right here in front of you, and use proper tone so he or she might heed your advice...)
Give up on fixing Kaden. It's never going to happen. And don't keep falling back into old patterns. It's not healthy.
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