Somedays it's really hard...
I miss him like woah...aka...warning don't read this if you don't wanna hear about it. Laugh if you want but what it comes down to is I love him too much to not see him for this long.
China and Scotland are gonna be rough. I don't think I want to think about it. Sadly, it's coming up really quick.
Speaking of which, I feel like all of a sudden everything's spinning out of control. Nothing's really changed...like at all...but I feel lost and like I'm forgetting stuff.
I don't wanna go do that thing tomorrow but I need to cause I'm broke. *Sigh* There are very few times when I don't like being a woman, this is one of them. I just hope it doesn't hurt :(
I also hope that I don't wake up tonight and throw up again. That was so weird...I dunno what it was. Just makes me paranoid...Kt ate everything I ate with the exception of cheese raviolies, tylenol, and a bottle of OJ...Lisa ate the cheese raviolies so it was either the tylenol or the OJ...needless to say, I'm afraid to finish the OJ or take tylenol (not that I need that right now).
I really need it to be this weekend now. I mean I understand that he gets crazy busy but it just sucks when he can't talk. I have to admit that even though I know it won't happen that often, I sorta liked getting several phone calls in a two days last wkend when I first got to ABQ. It was flattering. I really really hope we talk tomorrow, it's been nearly 3 days :(
I'm so jealous of people who are dating somone on the same campus as them. Like woah...big green giant of jealousy. I know that won't happen and I know that it may never happen that we'll be in the same town (cept maybe the summers) but I can't help wishing for it. It's only when it gets to be more then a cpl wks that I really want that. It would be so amazing. Even if we didn't see each other every day, just to know that he's within walking distance instead of an hour drive. I know an hour's not that far but it sure feels like he's far away.
*Sigh* I'm lonely.
And it's only Wednesday.
*Sigh*
This week could have gone so much better. I definately have a bad case of spring fever/don't want to live in the midwest anymore/dont' wnat to go to school anymore/don't want to be this far away anymore.
Bleh...I'm discontent in a major way.
What bugs me is I know that I'll be fine after Friday. I know it's not a bad thing to feel that way but I just wish that I didn't have to miss him so much.
Bleh...I'm gonna regret making this a public entry.
China and Scotland are gonna be rough. I don't think I want to think about it. Sadly, it's coming up really quick.
Speaking of which, I feel like all of a sudden everything's spinning out of control. Nothing's really changed...like at all...but I feel lost and like I'm forgetting stuff.
I don't wanna go do that thing tomorrow but I need to cause I'm broke. *Sigh* There are very few times when I don't like being a woman, this is one of them. I just hope it doesn't hurt :(
I also hope that I don't wake up tonight and throw up again. That was so weird...I dunno what it was. Just makes me paranoid...Kt ate everything I ate with the exception of cheese raviolies, tylenol, and a bottle of OJ...Lisa ate the cheese raviolies so it was either the tylenol or the OJ...needless to say, I'm afraid to finish the OJ or take tylenol (not that I need that right now).
I really need it to be this weekend now. I mean I understand that he gets crazy busy but it just sucks when he can't talk. I have to admit that even though I know it won't happen that often, I sorta liked getting several phone calls in a two days last wkend when I first got to ABQ. It was flattering. I really really hope we talk tomorrow, it's been nearly 3 days :(
I'm so jealous of people who are dating somone on the same campus as them. Like woah...big green giant of jealousy. I know that won't happen and I know that it may never happen that we'll be in the same town (cept maybe the summers) but I can't help wishing for it. It's only when it gets to be more then a cpl wks that I really want that. It would be so amazing. Even if we didn't see each other every day, just to know that he's within walking distance instead of an hour drive. I know an hour's not that far but it sure feels like he's far away.
*Sigh* I'm lonely.
And it's only Wednesday.
*Sigh*
This week could have gone so much better. I definately have a bad case of spring fever/don't want to live in the midwest anymore/dont' wnat to go to school anymore/don't want to be this far away anymore.
Bleh...I'm discontent in a major way.
What bugs me is I know that I'll be fine after Friday. I know it's not a bad thing to feel that way but I just wish that I didn't have to miss him so much.
Bleh...I'm gonna regret making this a public entry.