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take time to appreciate the little things
the things you never really noticed
your friends who are like family
the family that love you for who you are
having opportunities that other may not have
take the time to sit back and look around you
really look around
and you'll see the little things
that we all forget about
so as this weekend approached i found myself very depressed. i just wanted to be home. i guess i was a little bit homesick which is really weird for me because i have never been homesick...ever. but ever since i visited my mom in the hospital i've just appreciated every little thing that i have. for those of you who i talked to the night after i visited her you know what kind of state i was in...i know my mom is fine and she's on her way to being %100 again but i still can't shake the thought of....i could have lost her. and even though she's okay it just gets me thinking about how she's not always going to be here...both my parents are older than most parents...they're reaching their limit. and it just gets me thinking about how 'could have lost her' one day is going to be a 'lost her.' so i've been really looking foward to this weekend because i can be here and take care of my mom and just spend time with her- and my dad and i just don't want to go back. i love being here and just being able to know that they're both doing okay.
on another note. lazer gate went pretty good. i say pretty good because there were some times during the 7 hours were people were aggrivating me. in the beggining tony made me feel like crap- for the first two games i split lakeville and fitchburg up so everyone could get used to the game and so federico could play with people he knew; he had to leave early. so lakeville went in first and fitchburg went in 2nd and the plan was federico, josh and i would play back to back so that fed/josh could get in as many games as they could before they needed to leave and i would play both because i didn't want to have to choose between my friends; lagit right? so i came out after the lakeville game and tony was like 'why do you get to play two games in a row' so then i tried to say how i didn't want to choose between my friends and he just cut me off and was like 'yeah yeah okay whatever' then i said to get blue because obviously i wanted to play with him and greg because well duh- they're my best friends but he was like 'No no we're going to make our own team you can play with your other friends' so what ended up happening was the midnight couch club was all orange and i was blue and they were all against me. i didn't get to play with tony or greg for the entire 7 hours. tony completly excluded me from the midnight couch club and went against the reason why i set up this whole thing; to have fun with the couch. all i have to say is thank god for kelly and katie. so after that i pretty much avoided tony and stuck with katie and kel because when the 3 of us played together it was SO much fun. but then brian came. and they wanted to hang out with him. and i gave brian the cold sholder the whole night. so towards the end i ended up hanging out with zach and mike. the couch pissed me off because they were being completly exclusive and not trying at all to meet any of my home friends where as my home friends were asking me to introduce them. the couch didn't give a crap. and they had a horrible attitude about the whole thing. it was really fun but at the same time it was really fustrating and just...whatever. then after lazer gate it was just a continuation of just fsc sucking (if you want to know just ask, i don't feel like writing it all out) but they regained my love after we all woke up. when we woke up at like 2:30 i put on the coffee and then zach, mike, russo and i ran down to the supermarket and got a bunch of breakfast stuff. it was a group effort to make a wondeful breakfast; it was like we were a little family. i loved it. i was in charge of supplies and silverware and setting up, tony was making eggs, shaina was mixing the milk and eggs, greg got the cheese, guto was making bacon, mike made toast, zach poured the orange juice and russo helped out where necessary. it was just so-gah i loved it.
then tonight i went out with tj- just me and him. major tj and heather time. heh i'm not even going to go into our adventure but what it comes down to is i love that kid!
good weekend
the things you never really noticed
your friends who are like family
the family that love you for who you are
having opportunities that other may not have
take the time to sit back and look around you
really look around
and you'll see the little things
that we all forget about
so as this weekend approached i found myself very depressed. i just wanted to be home. i guess i was a little bit homesick which is really weird for me because i have never been homesick...ever. but ever since i visited my mom in the hospital i've just appreciated every little thing that i have. for those of you who i talked to the night after i visited her you know what kind of state i was in...i know my mom is fine and she's on her way to being %100 again but i still can't shake the thought of....i could have lost her. and even though she's okay it just gets me thinking about how she's not always going to be here...both my parents are older than most parents...they're reaching their limit. and it just gets me thinking about how 'could have lost her' one day is going to be a 'lost her.' so i've been really looking foward to this weekend because i can be here and take care of my mom and just spend time with her- and my dad and i just don't want to go back. i love being here and just being able to know that they're both doing okay.
on another note. lazer gate went pretty good. i say pretty good because there were some times during the 7 hours were people were aggrivating me. in the beggining tony made me feel like crap- for the first two games i split lakeville and fitchburg up so everyone could get used to the game and so federico could play with people he knew; he had to leave early. so lakeville went in first and fitchburg went in 2nd and the plan was federico, josh and i would play back to back so that fed/josh could get in as many games as they could before they needed to leave and i would play both because i didn't want to have to choose between my friends; lagit right? so i came out after the lakeville game and tony was like 'why do you get to play two games in a row' so then i tried to say how i didn't want to choose between my friends and he just cut me off and was like 'yeah yeah okay whatever' then i said to get blue because obviously i wanted to play with him and greg because well duh- they're my best friends but he was like 'No no we're going to make our own team you can play with your other friends' so what ended up happening was the midnight couch club was all orange and i was blue and they were all against me. i didn't get to play with tony or greg for the entire 7 hours. tony completly excluded me from the midnight couch club and went against the reason why i set up this whole thing; to have fun with the couch. all i have to say is thank god for kelly and katie. so after that i pretty much avoided tony and stuck with katie and kel because when the 3 of us played together it was SO much fun. but then brian came. and they wanted to hang out with him. and i gave brian the cold sholder the whole night. so towards the end i ended up hanging out with zach and mike. the couch pissed me off because they were being completly exclusive and not trying at all to meet any of my home friends where as my home friends were asking me to introduce them. the couch didn't give a crap. and they had a horrible attitude about the whole thing. it was really fun but at the same time it was really fustrating and just...whatever. then after lazer gate it was just a continuation of just fsc sucking (if you want to know just ask, i don't feel like writing it all out) but they regained my love after we all woke up. when we woke up at like 2:30 i put on the coffee and then zach, mike, russo and i ran down to the supermarket and got a bunch of breakfast stuff. it was a group effort to make a wondeful breakfast; it was like we were a little family. i loved it. i was in charge of supplies and silverware and setting up, tony was making eggs, shaina was mixing the milk and eggs, greg got the cheese, guto was making bacon, mike made toast, zach poured the orange juice and russo helped out where necessary. it was just so-gah i loved it.
then tonight i went out with tj- just me and him. major tj and heather time. heh i'm not even going to go into our adventure but what it comes down to is i love that kid!
good weekend