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as i write this i have been drinking all night at parties, but it does nothing for me. i am so crazy. what is it about me that causes so much strife about myself ? i could pick up so many chicks in tally, but why is it that it feels so wrong. jeannie you bitch, what makes you so special. i was at the clubs and i met this chick that was chinese and was better looking than jeannie, boobs and all, but instead of taking her home i bailed and left her hanging. what is it about you that makes you so god damned special that i can't forget you and move on. hopefully the stint of self destruction that i am on will desensitize me and then i will soon get the fuck on and move on. i know i have a beautiful future where i will succeed in everything that i do. cause that's what i do. no matter what i do, i will succeed with flying colors. that is I. fucking lucky number sevens. no matter what.
tonight some girl asked me why i smoked ciggaretes. to which i replied, "give me a reason to quit" after that she said "if you keep on smoking then you will die" to which i replied "don't you know, that is the reason that i smoke, i could only hope to die so soon and so painless". what happened to the days where i enjoyed life for what it is, and not for getting fucked up and picking up random chicks. jeannie what is it about you that has fucked me in the head and does not let me move on to the emptiness that is life. it's gotten so bad that i am writing in a motherfucking livejournal for christsakes.
as they say friend is four letter word. as much as i said i would never give in to the preassures of society, i have decided to join a frat. i lost something dear to me this semester and have realized that life as a whole no longer really matters to me. as long as this continues i shall continue this self destructive pattern till someone can show me the light to lead me out of the darkness that has become my life. i truly wish for someone to please come and save me, but no one will. tis but life.
tonight some girl asked me why i smoked ciggaretes. to which i replied, "give me a reason to quit" after that she said "if you keep on smoking then you will die" to which i replied "don't you know, that is the reason that i smoke, i could only hope to die so soon and so painless". what happened to the days where i enjoyed life for what it is, and not for getting fucked up and picking up random chicks. jeannie what is it about you that has fucked me in the head and does not let me move on to the emptiness that is life. it's gotten so bad that i am writing in a motherfucking livejournal for christsakes.
as they say friend is four letter word. as much as i said i would never give in to the preassures of society, i have decided to join a frat. i lost something dear to me this semester and have realized that life as a whole no longer really matters to me. as long as this continues i shall continue this self destructive pattern till someone can show me the light to lead me out of the darkness that has become my life. i truly wish for someone to please come and save me, but no one will. tis but life.