Alone....so alone
I just got back from Lousiville. I went to see my sister. She had a baby and he is so pretty. She has'nt named him yet but I think it's pretty cool that he was born on Valentines Day. But fuck Valentines Day. It's bullshit. Well in my case. I miss Stephen. No matter how hard I try to stop loving him I still do. My heart aches without him. I wish that I was never that stupid to fall in love. He left me in love all alone and I just don't know what to do. Lonely, coming home to and empty house for 6 years and they all wonder why I talk to myself. Stephen's left me. My best friend. My Teela has grown up...my sissy. Oh I miss her too. I love everyone. And I wish that I could not love Stephen because it hurts to be in this world without him. He carried me through it in a funny kind of way. I pray for him all the time. I hope he's happy and always in that matter. I love to see him smile even if it's not because of me anymore. I'm not supposed to love him anymore. All of his pictures are in a shoe box. My pages of feelings that I had wrote I can no longer read for the momeories haunt me. Always will I love him. Love always, Megan Gabrielle Hazelwood