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I threw up all day today.
Went to work for an hour and got sent home cause I was absolutely miserable.
Got decent sleep and watched movies and threw up and then hung out.
I think I needed this though.
I did an experiment last night while I was on the adventure. I took shots. Probably one too many. I think all together I did between 3-4. I wanted to see what would happen to me. And throwing up and being a miserable wreck and missing an entire Saturday at work ensued. So its a definite: I am not to drink again for a long, long time. I no longer have the desire. I felt like the biggest piece of used up shit all day. But, it was the wake up I needed. I'm glad I went through today.
I am also glad for my friends and my little brother. He's such a cool dude. I wanna hang out with him everyday. I wish that he was older so I could take him out with me. And my friends rock. Jaime called me today to make sure I was okay. Melissa came by for a while. Laura convinced my manager and other coworkers to allow me to go home. They were all so sweet to me today.
I am thinking about finding a semi-full time job somewhere in the mall. I sort of miss retail. I like working and selling and not having to deal with people's food. I think that if I do get a job like this, I will quit Barrowsville and only work at Applebee's at nighttime a few nights a week. I would only do this if I was offered something more than $9/hour though. Its hard because I don't have Lina's or Jay's numbers, so they cant give me a reference from Aerosoles, where I was on the verge of replacing an assistant manager. Oh well. We'll see.
I'm going to go pop in a movie and relax and sleep for a while. And hopefully dream of something lovely.
xoxo!
Went to work for an hour and got sent home cause I was absolutely miserable.
Got decent sleep and watched movies and threw up and then hung out.
I think I needed this though.
I did an experiment last night while I was on the adventure. I took shots. Probably one too many. I think all together I did between 3-4. I wanted to see what would happen to me. And throwing up and being a miserable wreck and missing an entire Saturday at work ensued. So its a definite: I am not to drink again for a long, long time. I no longer have the desire. I felt like the biggest piece of used up shit all day. But, it was the wake up I needed. I'm glad I went through today.
I am also glad for my friends and my little brother. He's such a cool dude. I wanna hang out with him everyday. I wish that he was older so I could take him out with me. And my friends rock. Jaime called me today to make sure I was okay. Melissa came by for a while. Laura convinced my manager and other coworkers to allow me to go home. They were all so sweet to me today.
I am thinking about finding a semi-full time job somewhere in the mall. I sort of miss retail. I like working and selling and not having to deal with people's food. I think that if I do get a job like this, I will quit Barrowsville and only work at Applebee's at nighttime a few nights a week. I would only do this if I was offered something more than $9/hour though. Its hard because I don't have Lina's or Jay's numbers, so they cant give me a reference from Aerosoles, where I was on the verge of replacing an assistant manager. Oh well. We'll see.
I'm going to go pop in a movie and relax and sleep for a while. And hopefully dream of something lovely.
xoxo!