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I met Shealynn today. :)
She is precious and teeny and I love her already.
This weekend was a bit of a mess. I am a bit of a mess. But little life brings me joy so I put my things aside.
I feel like this whole week has been an out of body experience. I don't think I am seeing things clearly.
I am giving up on boys from my past. No point in moving forward and backward at once.
Maybe I should give up a lot from my past. No matter how well I do for myself, or how much I have changed, everyone can't get over the person I used to be. And no one can see what I see when I look at myself now. I feel like a better person, and all they can see are the mistakes that I have made and the choices that have affected my life. I have nothing to hide anymore.
I am just gonna eliminate the people that make it hard on me. If you can't see the hard work I've done, then you are not worth my time or patience.
After every weekend, I find myself repeating the things I need. I need someone to keep me focused on these things. My horoscope says I'll be meeting someone who will give me answers to who I am. I just hope they know what they're in for. I wish I had someone who understood me fully. For once, I need someone for myself only and who I can lean on. I'm tired of being the strength in every relationship I'm in. The stability. Why can't anyone take care of me for once?
Going back to see Shealynn in a few minutes. Then Pats game tonight. Work for the whole week and nothing fun in between yet.
xoxo!
She is precious and teeny and I love her already.
This weekend was a bit of a mess. I am a bit of a mess. But little life brings me joy so I put my things aside.
I feel like this whole week has been an out of body experience. I don't think I am seeing things clearly.
I am giving up on boys from my past. No point in moving forward and backward at once.
Maybe I should give up a lot from my past. No matter how well I do for myself, or how much I have changed, everyone can't get over the person I used to be. And no one can see what I see when I look at myself now. I feel like a better person, and all they can see are the mistakes that I have made and the choices that have affected my life. I have nothing to hide anymore.
I am just gonna eliminate the people that make it hard on me. If you can't see the hard work I've done, then you are not worth my time or patience.
After every weekend, I find myself repeating the things I need. I need someone to keep me focused on these things. My horoscope says I'll be meeting someone who will give me answers to who I am. I just hope they know what they're in for. I wish I had someone who understood me fully. For once, I need someone for myself only and who I can lean on. I'm tired of being the strength in every relationship I'm in. The stability. Why can't anyone take care of me for once?
Going back to see Shealynn in a few minutes. Then Pats game tonight. Work for the whole week and nothing fun in between yet.
xoxo!