lack of energy
all i have energy and motivation to do is sleep and sometimes eat. sleeping brings me joy but pain. the joy is in dreaming. the pain in waking to reality and physical pain in my stomach. today i dreamt of rob's house that isn't his but it always is in my dreams. this time i had to walk past his parents in the living room to get to the bathroom because they couldn't know i was there. i don't want to go to school anymore at all. i don't have the drive or ambition for any of it.