My tummy still feels sick from last night.
I know it's a long term/final breakup this time because both of us cried, a lot.
He felt SO BAD and I couldn't be mad at him, I tried to make him feel better because blue eyes are too pretty to cry. Most girls would hate him now, bitch and cry and bitch and bitch and bitch. I couldn't say anything bad about him except he's a confused guy that needs to straighten out shit and he hurt me more than any boy has. My blue eyes hurt me than anyone else, that's the part that kills me. I gave everything and tried so hard and it's just like a bomb, blowin up right in front of my eyes.
How am I gonna be his friend but learn how to handle a new girlfriend that comes his way? Personally, I don't want to date anyone else and start over from the beginning teaching them my temper, humor, friends, pet peeves, sex talents (lol). Allllllllll too much work. I don't want to do it.
I was important with Jules, met and made friends with all of his friends. Now I'm never gonna talk to them again, so I guess they were never friends...? I don't know. I had importance and pride because everyone thought Jules was so cool and I was his GIRLFRIEND. "wife of the godfather" ---> from Jules' old apartment. I thought we'd be perfect but you just can't convince a person to feel for you what you feel for them. Forced love isn't love at all but pity in itself.
I told him if he came back to me this time; I want flowers, a teddy bear and him begging on his knees because this whole situation makes me sick and if/when he does come back, he's gonna go all out and do it right this time. Damn straight.
How long can "perfection" last? ----> one summer.
He felt SO BAD and I couldn't be mad at him, I tried to make him feel better because blue eyes are too pretty to cry. Most girls would hate him now, bitch and cry and bitch and bitch and bitch. I couldn't say anything bad about him except he's a confused guy that needs to straighten out shit and he hurt me more than any boy has. My blue eyes hurt me than anyone else, that's the part that kills me. I gave everything and tried so hard and it's just like a bomb, blowin up right in front of my eyes.
How am I gonna be his friend but learn how to handle a new girlfriend that comes his way? Personally, I don't want to date anyone else and start over from the beginning teaching them my temper, humor, friends, pet peeves, sex talents (lol). Allllllllll too much work. I don't want to do it.
I was important with Jules, met and made friends with all of his friends. Now I'm never gonna talk to them again, so I guess they were never friends...? I don't know. I had importance and pride because everyone thought Jules was so cool and I was his GIRLFRIEND. "wife of the godfather" ---> from Jules' old apartment. I thought we'd be perfect but you just can't convince a person to feel for you what you feel for them. Forced love isn't love at all but pity in itself.
I told him if he came back to me this time; I want flowers, a teddy bear and him begging on his knees because this whole situation makes me sick and if/when he does come back, he's gonna go all out and do it right this time. Damn straight.
How long can "perfection" last? ----> one summer.