Heartbreak once more...
Jesus, the 3rd time breaking up? But this time, it's final, not going to be better in a couple days. Sad to say but I guess the corny saying is true ..."if you love something, you have to said it free, if it comes back to you it was meant to be" I hope that happens...... I know it won't be for a while this time but ugh, I can't do much about the situation, now can I? You can't convince someone of loving you, I pulled the truth out of him because I saw in those big blue eyes something different, and I have been lately. Tonight it was overwhelming and I had to get it out of him before I'm hurt more. I prepared myself.... even though it made me sick to my stomach..... it still tears me to pieces...
I'm sure you're all tired of reading all this but heartbreak doesn't just go away by the next journal entry.......... I'm not going to burden you all with crying and bitching. I won't ask for your help because, know what? No one can help. If I was strong enough to pull the truth out and be ready for it, then I'm strong enough to stop hurting. I love him to death, feels like I lost my best friend, but kind of gained a new kind of best friend. I don't know... God, I love him but if he doesn't feel the same way, it's a classic case of unrequited love. It sucks.
Well, I got pretty good at packing up ALL my shit into one trash bag tonight. That's a feat, I usually forget EVERYTHING. I even got my shirt from the closet and my toothbrush.
I guess our slumber party is off for Thursday night. I wish I could have the boy I want, but I'm going to have to accept that I can't have him. That'll take time so please be patient.
Me and Joe are friends again, I don't think I'll be seeing him much anymore but at least things were resolved in the nick of time, eh? (damn canadians-gotta love em).
My eyes are burning, my tummy is sick, my head hurts and I feel like shit. My heart again has a void but this time, it's going to be there for a lonnnng time.
I get to see Bam Margera and Tony Hawk in 4 days....
::sigh:: I hope he figures out what he really wants, whatever is better for him, but I'm going to miss my boy.......
I'm sure you're all tired of reading all this but heartbreak doesn't just go away by the next journal entry.......... I'm not going to burden you all with crying and bitching. I won't ask for your help because, know what? No one can help. If I was strong enough to pull the truth out and be ready for it, then I'm strong enough to stop hurting. I love him to death, feels like I lost my best friend, but kind of gained a new kind of best friend. I don't know... God, I love him but if he doesn't feel the same way, it's a classic case of unrequited love. It sucks.
Well, I got pretty good at packing up ALL my shit into one trash bag tonight. That's a feat, I usually forget EVERYTHING. I even got my shirt from the closet and my toothbrush.
I guess our slumber party is off for Thursday night. I wish I could have the boy I want, but I'm going to have to accept that I can't have him. That'll take time so please be patient.
Me and Joe are friends again, I don't think I'll be seeing him much anymore but at least things were resolved in the nick of time, eh? (damn canadians-gotta love em).
My eyes are burning, my tummy is sick, my head hurts and I feel like shit. My heart again has a void but this time, it's going to be there for a lonnnng time.
I get to see Bam Margera and Tony Hawk in 4 days....
::sigh:: I hope he figures out what he really wants, whatever is better for him, but I'm going to miss my boy.......