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I've discovered that I often visit the state of confusion, and I know my way around pretty well...........
Last night I got a phone call on my cell and it had a very strange number- an Atlanta area code. Strange...
Me: Hello?
Them: is this Marci?
Me: Yeah....
Them: did you hear someone yelling "snaggle tooth cum guzzling gutter whore" at you earlier?
Me: whaaat?
Them: DID YOU HEAR someone yelling snaggle tooth cum guzzling gutter whore at you?
Me: Um, no. Can I ask who this please?
Them: Yeah, BITCH It's Adam's other girlfriend.
Me: what the fuck.....
Them: That's right bitch, get over it, I'm fuckin Adam.
and I hung up cause I got really scared.....
Called Adam, he says it's fucking crazy and he should be the one to know if he's fucking anyone, and he isn't. He said he's sorry, not because he's doing anything but because I don't deserve this shit and he has no fucking idea who it would be and he doesn't like me being upset like this. I don't know when the hell he'd have another girlfriend...he's with me after he gets off work, every night, and I know the hours he works and he talks to me all throughout the day soooo..... (?) Last night he was at home cause I was at the Y so, wouldn't he had been with his "other gf" on a Friday night if he couldn't chill with me?
It's a big mess, I already don't trust guys right off the bat cause of fucking Drew and now this shit happens, I don't know what to do.........
and then Tracey called me a few minutes ago and she said "Shelby's little brother is having a birthday party at the causeway and she doesn't want to be there so I said I'd go chill with her and listen to music or whatever, want to come?" I said "mmm, no it's ok I'll stay home" She said "well I already told her you'd be there" Me: "that doesn't give me much of a choice then does it?" Then she's like "WHAT? god, then nevermind, bye" Me: mm, bye. Am I just being a bitch or what the hell is going on? I don't know what the hell my boyfriend is doing behind my back, if he's doing anything, who the hell called me and why cause I really don't think he's guilty. Or maybe I'm just stupid?!
God, I'd think someone would cut me a break but it's just not happening. I hate this shit. People expect to god damn much of me and when I say no or I can't do something they get pissed and make me feel extremely bad. Now I'm getting smart ass comments from Alexis to see how mad she can get me I suppose.....
I swear to god if ANY of the people I know are doing this because they don't like the idea of me going out with a black guy or any dumb shit like that, I HATE YOU and please die soon because this is mean, I didn't do anything to you. I'm mad as hell !!!
Last night I got a phone call on my cell and it had a very strange number- an Atlanta area code. Strange...
Me: Hello?
Them: is this Marci?
Me: Yeah....
Them: did you hear someone yelling "snaggle tooth cum guzzling gutter whore" at you earlier?
Me: whaaat?
Them: DID YOU HEAR someone yelling snaggle tooth cum guzzling gutter whore at you?
Me: Um, no. Can I ask who this please?
Them: Yeah, BITCH It's Adam's other girlfriend.
Me: what the fuck.....
Them: That's right bitch, get over it, I'm fuckin Adam.
and I hung up cause I got really scared.....
Called Adam, he says it's fucking crazy and he should be the one to know if he's fucking anyone, and he isn't. He said he's sorry, not because he's doing anything but because I don't deserve this shit and he has no fucking idea who it would be and he doesn't like me being upset like this. I don't know when the hell he'd have another girlfriend...he's with me after he gets off work, every night, and I know the hours he works and he talks to me all throughout the day soooo..... (?) Last night he was at home cause I was at the Y so, wouldn't he had been with his "other gf" on a Friday night if he couldn't chill with me?
It's a big mess, I already don't trust guys right off the bat cause of fucking Drew and now this shit happens, I don't know what to do.........
and then Tracey called me a few minutes ago and she said "Shelby's little brother is having a birthday party at the causeway and she doesn't want to be there so I said I'd go chill with her and listen to music or whatever, want to come?" I said "mmm, no it's ok I'll stay home" She said "well I already told her you'd be there" Me: "that doesn't give me much of a choice then does it?" Then she's like "WHAT? god, then nevermind, bye" Me: mm, bye. Am I just being a bitch or what the hell is going on? I don't know what the hell my boyfriend is doing behind my back, if he's doing anything, who the hell called me and why cause I really don't think he's guilty. Or maybe I'm just stupid?!
God, I'd think someone would cut me a break but it's just not happening. I hate this shit. People expect to god damn much of me and when I say no or I can't do something they get pissed and make me feel extremely bad. Now I'm getting smart ass comments from Alexis to see how mad she can get me I suppose.....
I swear to god if ANY of the people I know are doing this because they don't like the idea of me going out with a black guy or any dumb shit like that, I HATE YOU and please die soon because this is mean, I didn't do anything to you. I'm mad as hell !!!