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I'm officially the worst mother in the world
this is why i dont want kids
because look what happens to my pets
really shitty fucked up things.
no, i shall never be a real mother.
i had an eventful night tonight
i went to the beach for an hour or two and watched the storm abrewin'
i went home, jogged for about 35 minutes around the neighborhood
went back home to do exercises and start laundry
my gerbils were exceptionally active, as was jude
freckle noticed, i yelled at him that he knows better to watch the gerbils
i started laundry and when i went to get the second load, i noticed the cage
the gerbil cage
it was upsided down on the floor
i looked at freckle and saw him batting Leona
i instantly picked him up by his neck and threw him into the hallway wall
and yelled profusely
i ran to leona and picked her up
it was too late
she had to have just passed because she was so warm
and i could have sworn i felt a heart beat
i tested to see if she was breathing, she was not
i said "gia, where are you?"
and gia popped her head up from behind her wooden house inside the mangled cage
i feel so bad
Leona's death is my responsibility
could you imagine a huge giant flipping your house upside down
and just so happen the door popped open
you stick her head out to see what happend
and the giant breaks your neck
and your best friend just watched you die
i couldn't handle it
and if gia dies because of this traumatic experience, i dont blame her
i laid Leona in the cage so Gia could see what happend
and Gia licked her face :-(
i buried Leona in the back yard
i made freckle apoligize
i brought him to the gravesite and made him put his paw on it
but he jumped out my arms and rolled on his back across the grave
it was wierd
i know it is his instinct but HE KNOWS BETTER
and he knows he did something bad
because everytime i walk by him i give him my death stare
and he puts his ears down, crouches and runs away
this is why i dont want kids
because look what happens to my pets
really shitty fucked up things.
no, i shall never be a real mother.
i had an eventful night tonight
i went to the beach for an hour or two and watched the storm abrewin'
i went home, jogged for about 35 minutes around the neighborhood
went back home to do exercises and start laundry
my gerbils were exceptionally active, as was jude
freckle noticed, i yelled at him that he knows better to watch the gerbils
i started laundry and when i went to get the second load, i noticed the cage
the gerbil cage
it was upsided down on the floor
i looked at freckle and saw him batting Leona
i instantly picked him up by his neck and threw him into the hallway wall
and yelled profusely
i ran to leona and picked her up
it was too late
she had to have just passed because she was so warm
and i could have sworn i felt a heart beat
i tested to see if she was breathing, she was not
i said "gia, where are you?"
and gia popped her head up from behind her wooden house inside the mangled cage
i feel so bad
Leona's death is my responsibility
could you imagine a huge giant flipping your house upside down
and just so happen the door popped open
you stick her head out to see what happend
and the giant breaks your neck
and your best friend just watched you die
i couldn't handle it
and if gia dies because of this traumatic experience, i dont blame her
i laid Leona in the cage so Gia could see what happend
and Gia licked her face :-(
i buried Leona in the back yard
i made freckle apoligize
i brought him to the gravesite and made him put his paw on it
but he jumped out my arms and rolled on his back across the grave
it was wierd
i know it is his instinct but HE KNOWS BETTER
and he knows he did something bad
because everytime i walk by him i give him my death stare
and he puts his ears down, crouches and runs away