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i woke up wanting to do nothing but puke all over myself
i had a dream about pictures
i got mail from someone i did not know
actually, three people in the room got mail
i had good feelings about them but they were strangers to me
i had three blank envelopes so i distributed them randomly
they didnt tell me what was in their envelopes...
but my mail included those fuzzy seeing eye pictures, and a roll of film
and i usually can never see anything in those
because i already have a bad eye
and i just cant see what's cool about them
i never know what the secret message is
but in the dream i did
but they weren't cool pictures
they were of a family i didn't know
and it was really creepy
the main picutures i remember are:
a baby in a sewer hole
a dark alley
an ariel shot of two brick walls and a small path in between, and it spun
the roll of of film was even creepier
it was of three people getting on make up
it showed step by step this whole prosetic (i know i spelled that horribly wrong) face
and one of them had a lady holding a sign reading "do you want to know what all this means?"
and the next picture was the most fucked up face you could imagine
straight out of a god damn nightmare, and that's exactly what it came from
and this beast had another sign that said "you're going to die"
when i woke up i knew where they were
they were in my old new jersey house, in that small ass kitchen we had
i remember seeing the window that looked into the back yard
where my mom would watch us play
and there was always a tomato in the window
as soon as i saw the pictures
i ran to a door in this house i've never been to
and it had a door above the window
i looked out
and saw a dark ocean
with a star soaked sky
and i screamed for brian
because i knew he had gone to the beach
but it just got darker the more i screamed for him
so i woke up panicing
my heart was racing, it still is
my gag reflex was in "ON" mode
it was bad
and i feel so fucking scared
then i thought of tracey moving to washington
and man, i just dont understand life
i just dont
why do the people that i love the most have to leave
pick someone else you god damn thing called living
now we cant finish growing up together
i cant know she'll be here in the next 2 hours that it would take her to drive to stuart from orlando
now she's going to be across the god damn US
i dont get used to things easy
and this time especially is no different
now i have to develop all thos pictures i have in my car
my god i hope they are not expired
they probably are
i'm so stupid for never developing them
oh god i'm so dumb
its my only way of remembering how much fun we had
and it just sits in my car
because i have no god damn money
oh man, i'm going to take a vicodin
because its obviously the only thing thats gonna chill me out
i had a dream about pictures
i got mail from someone i did not know
actually, three people in the room got mail
i had good feelings about them but they were strangers to me
i had three blank envelopes so i distributed them randomly
they didnt tell me what was in their envelopes...
but my mail included those fuzzy seeing eye pictures, and a roll of film
and i usually can never see anything in those
because i already have a bad eye
and i just cant see what's cool about them
i never know what the secret message is
but in the dream i did
but they weren't cool pictures
they were of a family i didn't know
and it was really creepy
the main picutures i remember are:
a baby in a sewer hole
a dark alley
an ariel shot of two brick walls and a small path in between, and it spun
the roll of of film was even creepier
it was of three people getting on make up
it showed step by step this whole prosetic (i know i spelled that horribly wrong) face
and one of them had a lady holding a sign reading "do you want to know what all this means?"
and the next picture was the most fucked up face you could imagine
straight out of a god damn nightmare, and that's exactly what it came from
and this beast had another sign that said "you're going to die"
when i woke up i knew where they were
they were in my old new jersey house, in that small ass kitchen we had
i remember seeing the window that looked into the back yard
where my mom would watch us play
and there was always a tomato in the window
as soon as i saw the pictures
i ran to a door in this house i've never been to
and it had a door above the window
i looked out
and saw a dark ocean
with a star soaked sky
and i screamed for brian
because i knew he had gone to the beach
but it just got darker the more i screamed for him
so i woke up panicing
my heart was racing, it still is
my gag reflex was in "ON" mode
it was bad
and i feel so fucking scared
then i thought of tracey moving to washington
and man, i just dont understand life
i just dont
why do the people that i love the most have to leave
pick someone else you god damn thing called living
now we cant finish growing up together
i cant know she'll be here in the next 2 hours that it would take her to drive to stuart from orlando
now she's going to be across the god damn US
i dont get used to things easy
and this time especially is no different
now i have to develop all thos pictures i have in my car
my god i hope they are not expired
they probably are
i'm so stupid for never developing them
oh god i'm so dumb
its my only way of remembering how much fun we had
and it just sits in my car
because i have no god damn money
oh man, i'm going to take a vicodin
because its obviously the only thing thats gonna chill me out