exhaustion
hmm lets see
liquid depression runs through my veins like blood
everything's fucked up
in all ways it could be fucked up
i'm just waiting for someone to die next
or maybe it could be me
unbearable anguish
anger, frustration, emptiness - NOTHINGNESS
this time i feel as though i'll be stuck in it
because there's no way out
there really isnt
it's like i'm running towards a cliff
full speed
and jumping
only, there's still no definite ending
i never hit the ground
i just keep falling towards it but knowing i'll never feel it
i'll never stand on it with my own feet
i just stay in the air
falling falling falling
and never meeting my own ultimate doom
it just haunts me- forever
theres no end in sight
and i know its just an end
not a finish line signifying that i have won something
like i deserve a prize for breaking the ribbon first
god knows he never gave me anything to be proud of to be me
so why should i feel victorious
why should i feel important?
there's just an inevitable haunting of my own never-approaching doom
liquid depression runs through my veins like blood
everything's fucked up
in all ways it could be fucked up
i'm just waiting for someone to die next
or maybe it could be me
unbearable anguish
anger, frustration, emptiness - NOTHINGNESS
this time i feel as though i'll be stuck in it
because there's no way out
there really isnt
it's like i'm running towards a cliff
full speed
and jumping
only, there's still no definite ending
i never hit the ground
i just keep falling towards it but knowing i'll never feel it
i'll never stand on it with my own feet
i just stay in the air
falling falling falling
and never meeting my own ultimate doom
it just haunts me- forever
theres no end in sight
and i know its just an end
not a finish line signifying that i have won something
like i deserve a prize for breaking the ribbon first
god knows he never gave me anything to be proud of to be me
so why should i feel victorious
why should i feel important?
there's just an inevitable haunting of my own never-approaching doom