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Thank you Danyelli for your support. I love you very very much!! Today is going to be better because I'm done with the past. I've been told not to contact or even call him. So I'm not going to. I know I've said this line in the past...but this time it goes for John. I'm tired of going to bed at night and crying until I fall asleep. I'm tired of hurting myself over him over and over, and I know I don't have a place in his heart like I use to. It's become very different between us now and things will never go back to the way they use to be, we have grown apart and that's all there is to it. I'm begining to think I'm underselling myself. I'm good looking, come from a good family back ground, I care alot about education and have really high career goals. So why did I think that he would grow with that? I guess because of the words commitment, love, and in the name of doing everything together. Well yeah as long as it suits his needs. He says he's busted his ass for me. Why didn't he take 2 jobs at once like I did? Why didn't he put me through school first until he finally knew what he wanted to do? I've come out of this on the short end of the stick. Why have I been so blind? Things were great as long as I did whatever worked around him. Well now I'm making decisions it is time I left all of my baggage in Ohio and do things that make me happy.