Why hello there.
I had a strange urge to update today. I haven't so much as logged into LJ in weeks.
I am still as stressed as ever at work. I am the only full time person there, so it's difficult to pick up the pieces some days. Rumor is that we have a new manager. I fear that I'll resent her because she's an external hire and I'll have to train the woman who will oversee my work.
But.
I am going to be actively looking for a new job. Mike and I have been trying to conceive, and I don't want to risk anything given my stress level.
I can tell this job is affecting me, because my sister has been (bless her heart) calling me with job prospects that she finds. It's nowhere near how awful I felt at Verizon Wireless, but it's still more than I want to take on if I want a healthy pregnancy. With the new manager things might get better, but I know myself well enough to be realistic... just in case.
Things with Mike have been great. He has a lot of stress at his job too, but he's working through it and we are supportive of each other in our down time.
He constantly reminds me that I don't have a hobby or anything to look forward to. It aches to think that I refrain from making time for things I love. I just don't know what I love to do anymore. I want so badly to take a good yoga class. I also want to take a cake decorating class. I think I'd be good at it. My friend Kelli wants to open a vegan bakery, so she says. She mentioned this to me after a few weeks of wondering aloud if I should seek out a cake decorating class. It seemed like it was meant to be! Yet, I am still needing to do something more during the week. On a day-to-day basis, there should be something that I look forward to. I'm trying to figure out what that will be.
I hope you didn't forget about me and that I'll be back very soon. :)
I am still as stressed as ever at work. I am the only full time person there, so it's difficult to pick up the pieces some days. Rumor is that we have a new manager. I fear that I'll resent her because she's an external hire and I'll have to train the woman who will oversee my work.
But.
I am going to be actively looking for a new job. Mike and I have been trying to conceive, and I don't want to risk anything given my stress level.
I can tell this job is affecting me, because my sister has been (bless her heart) calling me with job prospects that she finds. It's nowhere near how awful I felt at Verizon Wireless, but it's still more than I want to take on if I want a healthy pregnancy. With the new manager things might get better, but I know myself well enough to be realistic... just in case.
Things with Mike have been great. He has a lot of stress at his job too, but he's working through it and we are supportive of each other in our down time.
He constantly reminds me that I don't have a hobby or anything to look forward to. It aches to think that I refrain from making time for things I love. I just don't know what I love to do anymore. I want so badly to take a good yoga class. I also want to take a cake decorating class. I think I'd be good at it. My friend Kelli wants to open a vegan bakery, so she says. She mentioned this to me after a few weeks of wondering aloud if I should seek out a cake decorating class. It seemed like it was meant to be! Yet, I am still needing to do something more during the week. On a day-to-day basis, there should be something that I look forward to. I'm trying to figure out what that will be.
I hope you didn't forget about me and that I'll be back very soon. :)