[Fanfic] First Love
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I can still remember our last kiss. It was bitter and sad, a mix of your cigarette fragrance and my tears. That time, you let me put my head on your chest; you gently caressed my head and whispered “Don’t cry. You will find a better man when you grow up.” I shook my head and told you that there will be no better man than you.
You laughed. I am such a naive kid, you said that time while inhaled your cigarette. Forget me.
That time I really hate you, you always say that I’m a kid, and I shouldn’t waste my time with old guy like you. You’re not old, you know it, and I’m not a kid. I’m mature enough to love. But you would never understand.
That night, I spent it together with you; I fell asleep on your chest. I was scared for the morning to come, because it would mean that I have to let you go. How do I live without you?
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But look, 10 years has been passed. I’m an adult now, not a kid like you used to know.
We broke up that time, yeah, I can still remember. It has become a sweet yet painful memory of my first love story. People say first love never dies, isn’t it? At least that’s what happens with me. I secure a special place in my heart, only for you.
For you who taught me to love and to be loved, for you who were willing to scold me when I was wrong. You, who have been my everything, thanks a lot. Now it’s about time to move on. Okay maybe it’s very late, but I can’t forget you until today.
I always wonder where are you now, how are you, how will you look like now, do you still remember me, etc etc. But now, I can finally smile and love somebody else.
“Minwoo-ah,” He calls me. “What are you doing?”
I stopped writing and turned to him. “Nothing.”
“Don’t lie to me.” He walks approaching me and hugs me from behind. “You’re writing letter?”
“Yeah.”
“To whom? Your family?” He raises an eyebrow.
“Naahhh~ It’s only, a letter to nobody.” I smile and gently push my fiancée behind to let go of his embrace.
“Minwoo-ah, are you telling me to go away?” He pretends to be sad, in a way I usually do to him. “I already make you tasty lasagna for our breakfast.”
“I’ll be there in a minute. Let me finish this first.” I smile and nod to him, asking for his understanding. He sighs but then smiles. “I’ll give you 5 minutes, or else I will ‘eat’ you instead.” He teases me and laughs wittily.
“Hahaha okay~ thank you a lot Kevin sweety…” I shout and wave my hand until he leaves my room. After that, I face my letter again.
I shall end this letter now. If someday we meet again, I want to show you the grown up me. But perhaps I will still be a kid forever for you. How nostalgic…
Ja, sayonara my first love, Moon Junyoung.
Forever a kid that fall in love with you,
Ha Minwoo.
I can still remember our last kiss. It was bitter and sad, a mix of your cigarette fragrance and my tears. That time, you let me put my head on your chest; you gently caressed my head and whispered “Don’t cry. You will find a better man when you grow up.” I shook my head and told you that there will be no better man than you.
You laughed. I am such a naive kid, you said that time while inhaled your cigarette. Forget me.
That time I really hate you, you always say that I’m a kid, and I shouldn’t waste my time with old guy like you. You’re not old, you know it, and I’m not a kid. I’m mature enough to love. But you would never understand.
That night, I spent it together with you; I fell asleep on your chest. I was scared for the morning to come, because it would mean that I have to let you go. How do I live without you?
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But look, 10 years has been passed. I’m an adult now, not a kid like you used to know.
We broke up that time, yeah, I can still remember. It has become a sweet yet painful memory of my first love story. People say first love never dies, isn’t it? At least that’s what happens with me. I secure a special place in my heart, only for you.
For you who taught me to love and to be loved, for you who were willing to scold me when I was wrong. You, who have been my everything, thanks a lot. Now it’s about time to move on. Okay maybe it’s very late, but I can’t forget you until today.
I always wonder where are you now, how are you, how will you look like now, do you still remember me, etc etc. But now, I can finally smile and love somebody else.
“Minwoo-ah,” He calls me. “What are you doing?”
I stopped writing and turned to him. “Nothing.”
“Don’t lie to me.” He walks approaching me and hugs me from behind. “You’re writing letter?”
“Yeah.”
“To whom? Your family?” He raises an eyebrow.
“Naahhh~ It’s only, a letter to nobody.” I smile and gently push my fiancée behind to let go of his embrace.
“Minwoo-ah, are you telling me to go away?” He pretends to be sad, in a way I usually do to him. “I already make you tasty lasagna for our breakfast.”
“I’ll be there in a minute. Let me finish this first.” I smile and nod to him, asking for his understanding. He sighs but then smiles. “I’ll give you 5 minutes, or else I will ‘eat’ you instead.” He teases me and laughs wittily.
“Hahaha okay~ thank you a lot Kevin sweety…” I shout and wave my hand until he leaves my room. After that, I face my letter again.
I shall end this letter now. If someday we meet again, I want to show you the grown up me. But perhaps I will still be a kid forever for you. How nostalgic…
Ja, sayonara my first love, Moon Junyoung.
Forever a kid that fall in love with you,
Ha Minwoo.