[Multi-chapter] My Long Way to Marry You (3/?)
Title : My Long Way to Marry You (Chapter 3/?)
Author : icha_kazeinda and my beloved sister aka_caster
Pairing : Sakuraiba, Juntoshi (side)
Rating : PG-13
Genre : Romance, Drama, Angst
Disclaimer : It's just our imagination
Summary : How I wish to hold him. Kissing his red lips. Seeing him laugh. Hearing his cheerful voice. Want to make love to him. But I couldn't. I can't. Because I'm away. Far away...
A/N : - Beta-ed by our best friend. Thanks for your helping, dear. *big hugs*
- Our native language is not English so we're sorry for bad grammars and any mistakes or typos here and there m(_ _)m
- For your information, this chapter connects with the previous chapter. So this chapter is still on Masaki's POV two weeks before the present day
[I don’t want to lose him, Jun... I can’t live without him...]
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“Sho-chan, are you okay? Where are you? I’m waiting for you at station. Please call me back or reply my mail or anything so I know that you’re okay. Please...” I sobbed, “ I want to see you right now,” I cried while hugging my knees to my chest.
It has been half and an hour since I came to the station and waited for Sho-chan. I couldn’t count how many times I’ve tried to call and mail him, but still no response from my lover yet. And I couldn’t count how many trains had passed in front of me. I’ve checked every trains that stopped at the station, hoping to see Sho-chan got out from one of them. But it was useless.
I returned to sit on a bench, hugged my knees to my chest, and cried there alone. It was almost midnight so there’s barely no one in the station. Only four or five person that just got off from the train. I knew I must drew attention for some people around me, crying in the station in the middle of the night. But I didn’t care about it. I just need my Sho-chan right now!!
Sho-chan...
Sho-chan...
Suddenly my phone rang. I immediately answered it without checking the caller ID.
“Hello, Sho-chan! Thank godness!! Where are you?”
“Uhm... Masaki, it’s me,”
“Jun...” My voice trailed off. “I’m sorry, Jun. I thought it’s from Sho-chan. I...,” I started crying again, “ Jun... what should I do? Sho-chan... he... “
“Masaki, listen to me. Where are you now?” Jun asked me. He sounded so serious but I also could sense worry in his voice. I took a deep breath to calm down a bit,
“I’m in a station near my apartment. I’m waiting for Sho-chan and...”
“Masaki...” Jun interupted me but he didn’t continue what he wanted to say. He kept silent for a moment. I couldn’t help to ask,
“Jun, what’s wrong?” I felt anxious. Did something happened with him?
“Masaki,” Jun finally started to speak again, “ Could you do me a favor? I want you to stay there and wait for me and Satoshi there. We’re on the way to pick you up. We have to go somewhere.”
“Eeeh?? Where?? But, Jun... I have to wait Sho-chan here at the station and I can’t leave. What if Sho-chan arrive and...”
“Aiba-chan...” it’s Ohno-kun’s voice who interupted me. He sounded so weak and his voice trembled, “Please, you have to come with us. It’s... It’s about Sho.” I widened my eyes,
“You guys know where Sho-chan is?? Where is he now??”
“Aiba-chan,please... Just stay there and wait for us, okay.” Ohno-kun seemed to ignore my question. I sighed,
“Okay.” I didn’t dare to ask further because they sounded so weird. It seemed like they’re hiding something from me. Is there any problem between Jun and Ohno-kun?? And then what it got to do with Sho?? Well, maybe I should ask them about it later.
After 15 minutes of waiting in front of the station, I finally saw Jun’s car approaching. I immediately got in the back seat, when he stopped the car in front of me. But what I didn’t expect to welcome me inside the car was Ohno-kun with his red and swollen eyes and Jun’s tensed face. Did they just got a fight between couple? I wanted to ask them about Sho-chan but as I could sense a heavy atmosphere between both of them, I just kept silent while Jun brought three of us to somewhere that I could guess the place where Sho-chan was.
After 30 minutes driving, finally three of us arrived at our destiniton. Jun stopped the car. Wait?! Is it... a hospital? I couldn’t stop wondering and finally asked Jun,
“Jun, why are we in the hospital? I thought we wil meet Sho-chan and...”, I couldn’t continue my words when suddenly I realized something.
“Jun...” I trembled. My tears started to flow again,” Did something happened to Sho-chan?”
Jun kept silent. He lowered his head and grabbed the wheel tighter.
“JUN! ANSWER ME!” I shouted at him. I was a bit startled because I’ve never shouted at Jun like that before. I could hear Ohno-kun choked sobs beside Jun.
“Masaki,” Jun finally turned his back and looked at me. He tried to hold back his tears, “Sho-kun... he... got stabbed by a drunk man on the way to station and now he’s unconscious at ICU... Masaki, wait!!” I didn’t wait for Jun to finish as I rushed out from the car and ran into the hospital, ignoring Jun’s yell at me from his car. My eyes got blurry, my head felt dizzy and I couldn’t breath properly. Sho-chan... It’s a lie, right? Please don’t leave me alone...
“Where... is.... ICU room?” I asked the moment I stood in front of the receptionist desk, breathless. My eyes brimmed with tears.
“Tu...turn right and then left. The ICU room is at the end of the corridor, sir.” The nurse stammered while pointing the way I should go.
I mumbled ‘thanks’ to her and immediately followed her direction. I bumped to many people along the way but I didn’t care. I had to clarify myself that what Jun had said was just a lie. It must be just a prank and Sho was waiting with his smile inside the room.
When I saw a room that written ‘ICU’ on the door, I tried to get in. But when I was about to open the door, a nurse held me back.
"Pardon me, sir, but you are not allowed to enter the room at this moment. We’re in the middle of an urgent surgery right now. Please wait in the waiting room outside."
"But, I need to see my boyfriend. I need to know how his condition is. Please..." I cried while begging at her. She shook her head slightly and patted my shoulder,
“I’m really sorry, sir, but our doctors are trying their best right now to save him and it’s better if you don’t interfere them.”
Jun and Ohno-kun came not long after that and Jun immediately hugged me tightly while caressing my back. I hugged him back and cried uncontrollably in his arms,
“Jun... It’s just a lie, isn’t it? Please say yes, Jun... I... I don’t want to lose him, Jun... I can’t live without him... I...”
“Sshh... Masaki... He’ll be alright. The doctors are trying their best to save him, aren’t they? So you have to believe at them,okay?” Jun hugged me tighter. I could feel that Jun was also tremble and held his tears to come out. Ohno-kun, who stood beside Jun all this time, cried silently and patted my shoulder. He looked at the nurse and asked with trembling voice,
“Could you tell us about his condition inside, please...”
I slowly released Jun’s arms around me and faced the nurse while wiping my tears with my hand.
She looked at me, Jun then Ohno-kun then took a deep breath before explained,
“He is striving against his critical period now. The wound in his stomache is too deep and his head seemed to crash pretty hard. Probably because he fell after being stabbed. Excuse me, but I have to go back inside. " the nurse walked away in a hurry.
I stared at the floor, thinking what the nurse has just said a while ago. Does that mean the wound is very serious? Sho-chan... please hang in there...the doctors are going to save you. I prayed silently in my heart when Jun patted my shoulder. I looked at him and I realized that Jun was eyeing someone at the corner of the waiting room.
I followed where he was looking at and my eyes fell on two person at that corner. Sho-chan’s parents. His father was standing while made a call. He looked very serious. His mother sat on one of the couch while crying all the time. I slowly walked toward them,
“Mom...” I said softly, couldn’t hold back my tears.
I remembered one day, Sho-chan’s mother asked me to call her ‘Mom’ instead of ‘Sakurai-san’ because she already accepted me in the family the moment she knew about my relationship with Sho-chan. She didn’t really mind about Sho being a gay, as long as her only son could find happiness and love in the person he choose. ‘I believe that you are a good man and I know you will make Sho happy, that’s why I will give both of you my blessing and remember you have to call me ‘Mom’ because I’ve considered you like my own son already.’ I remembered she said that while smiling warmly then hugging me. She really a mother with an angel’s heart for me. And now…
“Masaki...” she stood up from the couch and immediately hugged me. I hugged her back while crying uncontrollably in her embrace. She caressed my back softly with one hand and patted my head with her other hand,
“Let’s just pray for the best, ne, Masaki... We all know that Sho is a strong person. He will be alright.” She said between her sobs. I nodded slightly and hugged her tighter.
“He will be alright.” I heard Sho-chan’s father said while patted my shoulder. I looked up and saw Sakurai-san looking at me with no expression then he headed outside the room.
Until around two years of my relationship with Sho-chan, I never know either he gives his blessing for us or not. His expression was always same, rather no expression or nonchalantly. Sho-chan never said anything about his father’s opinion either. Well, maybe it didn’t matter for Sho-chan but it definitely a serious matter for me. I could feel that he didn’t fully accept Sho-chan’s being a gay and it made me sad and guilty. It seemed like I was the reason Sho-chan turned into a gay.
I sighed. It’s already two hours since the surgery began and still no one of the doctors or nurses came out from the ICU room. Mom and I were sitting while grabbing each others’ hand. She didn’t stop to give reasurring words to me that Sho would be alright. Once in a while she asked me about our relationship. I tried to smile and told her about my days with Sho-chan. It hurts everytime I tried to remember those days when right now the person I talked about was dying inside that room.
Suddenly ICU door was opened and a doctor came toward us. I felt a bit relieved when someone finally came out from that room. I really wanted to know what happened inside, how was the surgery, how Sho-chan condition was at that moment, but when I saw expression in the doctor’s face, I didn’t have courage to open my mouth to say something. His expression was between serious and tense.
“Is there any family member of Sakurai Sho-san?” asked the doctor while looking at us. Mom immediately approached the doctor and said with trembling voice,
“I’m his mother. How is my son, sensei?” Jun, Satoshi and I stood behind Mom, couldn’t wait to hear what the doctor was going to say.
“Your son got stabbed in his stomach. From the wound that is too deep, I could presume that he got stabbed more than once.”
I gasped and covered my mouth with my trembling hands. Tears started to flow again from my eyes. Sho-chan... More than once… Why did this have to happen to you? The doctor continued his explanation,
“But thank godness it didn’t hit his internal organs, so we may still have some hope that he can be saved. But...” he hesitated. I looked at the doctor. He seemed agitated and I couldn’t stop to ask him,
“But what, sensei? Did something happen to Sho-chan, sensei?” Jun who stood beside me grabbed my hand to calm me down a bit. The doctor took a deep breath and continued,
“But he loss a lot of blood and we should immediately perform a blood transfusion for Sakurai-san. Unfortunately we are out of stock for blood type A and...”
“I will donate my blood, sensei. I’m his mother after all. I will ask my husband to donate too.” Mom suddenly interupted the doctor. He nodded slightly then looked at three of us behind Mom. Ohno-kun understood the meaning and said to the doctor,
“Our blood type is A too. We will help to donate, sensei.” The doctor smiled a bit and asked Mom to go with him to arrange the transfusion process. Not long after, the both of them left to the doctor’s office, leaving the three of us there. Then Jun turned his head to look at me.
“Masaki...” I tried my best to hide my hurt feeling and faked a smile at Jun.
“It’s too bad my blood type is AB,ne...” I laughed bitterly and patted Jun’s shoulder, “It’s okay. I will wait you guys here. Just go. Sho-chan needs your bloods as soon as possible, right?”
Jun hesitated but finally nodded his head and headed to the doctor’s office with Ohno-kun, leaving me alone. I dropped on my knees and looked blankly at the ICU door. Sho-chan needed help but at the same time I couldn’t do anything. I felt useless at the moment. Why in the critical moment like this I had to be different from the others.
“Damn it!! Damn it!!!!” I hit the wall beside me with my fist and tears started to flow again from my eyes. What kind of boyfriend I am? When my lover need my help, here I am, only crying and can’t do anything. You are so useless, Masaki.
“Hey, are you okay?” suddenly I heard a woman’s voice beside me. I wiped my tears then looked up. I saw a beautiful woman stood next to me. She seemed worried while looking at me. I tried to stand up and smiled at her.
“I’m okay. Just a bit tired.” I tried to smile at her. I was a bit startled when suddenly she chuckled a bit while shaking her head slightly,
“I can see that you are not okay. You look pale. Ah! Do you want a sandwich? I bet you haven’t ate dinner yet, have you? Here,” she offered me a sandwich while smiling at me. I wanted to refuse her offer but she insisted,
“Don’t say ‘No’ and just take it. You really need it and besides I can’t carry you on the back if you are suddenly fainted because of starving, right?” she joked. I smiled and took the sandwich from her hand,
“Thank you, and don’t worry I won’t suddenly fainted in front of you. Ah! I’m Aiba Masaki.” I introduced myself. She smiled and bowed a little,
“Nice to meet you Aiba-san. I’m Horikita Maki.”
I almost dropped the sandwich she gave me. Ho...Horikita Maki?? What is she doing here now?? Why does my heart feel anxious when I see her?? Horikita Maki is the girl Sho-chan once told me in the past. She was Sho-chan’s highschool classmate who were madly in love with him and finally confessed to him in their second year but he rejected her because he considered her like his own little sister. Don’t tell me she’s going to...
I shook my head slowly. Don’t over thinking, Masaki. Just focus on Sho-chan’s condition now. That’s the most important thing.I tried to smile and wanted to start a conversation with her when suddenly I heard Mom’s voice from afar,
“Maki-chan...” Mom walked faster toward our direction and immediately hugged her. “Maki-chan, thank you. Thank you very much. If you are not in that place at that moment, I don’t know how Sho will be saved.” She sobbed while hugging Horikita-san. Sho-chan’s father came to both of them and patted her shoulder while mumbling ‘Thank you’ and smiled warmly at her. I lowered my head.
She... she is the one who found Sho-chan first at the scene. I should be thankful at her, but why my heart hurts a lot? Why do I feel more useless than before and it seems that I’m not needed here?
I was a bit startled when I felt someone grabbed my hand. I looked up and saw Jun and Ohno-kun have already back from the transfusion. Jun, as if he could read my thought, suddenly looked into my eyes and said in whisper,
“You are the one who are needed most by Sho-kun. Eventhough it’s only your presence here, but I’m sure it will help Sho-kun to struggle harder to come back for us, to able to see you again. Don’t forget about it. And don’t lose to that woman. She’s only in the past. Even Sho-kun had already rejected her. Show her who you are to Sho-kun!”
A tear dropped from my eyes but I smiled at Jun. I was really grateful to have a bestfriend like him. Ohno-kun smiled at me and dragged me towards Horikita-san who was chatting with Sho-chan’s parents.
“Maki-chan, thank you for your call before about Sho. I immediately called auntie, uncle and Aiba-chan here after you called.”
Horikita-san seemed a bit startled when Ohno-kun mention about me and said, “Ah! Aiba-san... You...” but Ohno-kun didn’t let her finish her words,
“Aiba-chan is Sho’s boyfriend.”
I could see her shock expression in her eyes but she hid it and smiled awkwardly at me,
“Ooh... I’m sorry, Aiba-san. I didn’t know that you...”
“It’s okay, Horikita-san. You don’t have to apologize. It’s my fault I didn’t properly introduce myself earlier to you.” I bowed slightly to her.
“Masaki, this is Horikita Maki. She attended at the same class as Sho and Satoshi for three years in highschool. She’s the one who first found Sho in the scene and she immediately called police after that. That’s why she had to go to police office before went here, to report about the incident. Thank godness the culprit now has been arrested.” Mom looked at me then to her, “Maki-chan, thank you for bringing Sho’s bag from the police office with you and giving it back to us. I will keep it until Sho wake up.”
Horikita-san smiled and shook her head slightly, “It’s nothing, auntie. By the way, nothing items are missing, right?” Mom opened Sho-chan’s bag and slowly checked his stuffs inside the bag,
“Hmm.. nothing is gone, I think,” she put out Sho-chan’s stuff one by one, “ His phone, his wallet, and his files from his office are still safe inside. And this is...” when she tried to put out the last stuff, the ICU door opened. All of us was immediately looked at the same doctor who came out from the ICU room earlier. We didn’t know that Mom was still trying to put out the last stuff and gasped softly when she looked what was that. She immediately put it back inside Sho-chan’s bag and looked at the doctor when he was going to say something. He looked very tensed and serious,
“Sakurai-san, I have a good news for you. The blood tranfusion for Sakurai Sho-san was completely successful,” I heard all of the person in the waiting room sighed in relieve. But I couldn’t. I could sense something was happened inside there. If not, there’s no way the doctor looked very serious right now. That’s why I couldn’t help to ask the doctor,
“Sensei, is there something happened?”
He sighed heavily and continued his explaining, “If there’s a good news, it means there’s also a bad news for it,” he looked at Mom,
“Sakurai-san, I’m sorry but it seems that your son’s struggle has not ended yet. He’s in comatose and it can be for weeks, months or years...” I couldn’t hear the rest when suddenly I felt dizzy and the last thing I heard was Jun screaming my name before suddenly everything became dark.
-tbc-
Hello guys~ we're back with chapter 3 on New Year!! \(^o^)/
well,,it seems that the story will be more angst (I think XD) start from this chapter *get more tissues TT_TT*
and please don't kill us for putting Horikita Maki in this story m(_ _)m
we have a proper reason why we choose Horikita Maki and you will know it later XD
Oh! You can read the previous chapters here :
Chapter 1 // Chapter 2
The next chapter will be updated in two weeks (or less than two weeks XD)
Happy New Year 2015 for all of you guys and It's Shonuary month!!! XD
Comments are really appreciated~ <333
Author : icha_kazeinda and my beloved sister aka_caster
Pairing : Sakuraiba, Juntoshi (side)
Rating : PG-13
Genre : Romance, Drama, Angst
Disclaimer : It's just our imagination
Summary : How I wish to hold him. Kissing his red lips. Seeing him laugh. Hearing his cheerful voice. Want to make love to him. But I couldn't. I can't. Because I'm away. Far away...
A/N : - Beta-ed by our best friend. Thanks for your helping, dear. *big hugs*
- Our native language is not English so we're sorry for bad grammars and any mistakes or typos here and there m(_ _)m
- For your information, this chapter connects with the previous chapter. So this chapter is still on Masaki's POV two weeks before the present day
[I don’t want to lose him, Jun... I can’t live without him...]
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“Sho-chan, are you okay? Where are you? I’m waiting for you at station. Please call me back or reply my mail or anything so I know that you’re okay. Please...” I sobbed, “ I want to see you right now,” I cried while hugging my knees to my chest.
It has been half and an hour since I came to the station and waited for Sho-chan. I couldn’t count how many times I’ve tried to call and mail him, but still no response from my lover yet. And I couldn’t count how many trains had passed in front of me. I’ve checked every trains that stopped at the station, hoping to see Sho-chan got out from one of them. But it was useless.
I returned to sit on a bench, hugged my knees to my chest, and cried there alone. It was almost midnight so there’s barely no one in the station. Only four or five person that just got off from the train. I knew I must drew attention for some people around me, crying in the station in the middle of the night. But I didn’t care about it. I just need my Sho-chan right now!!
Sho-chan...
Sho-chan...
Suddenly my phone rang. I immediately answered it without checking the caller ID.
“Hello, Sho-chan! Thank godness!! Where are you?”
“Uhm... Masaki, it’s me,”
“Jun...” My voice trailed off. “I’m sorry, Jun. I thought it’s from Sho-chan. I...,” I started crying again, “ Jun... what should I do? Sho-chan... he... “
“Masaki, listen to me. Where are you now?” Jun asked me. He sounded so serious but I also could sense worry in his voice. I took a deep breath to calm down a bit,
“I’m in a station near my apartment. I’m waiting for Sho-chan and...”
“Masaki...” Jun interupted me but he didn’t continue what he wanted to say. He kept silent for a moment. I couldn’t help to ask,
“Jun, what’s wrong?” I felt anxious. Did something happened with him?
“Masaki,” Jun finally started to speak again, “ Could you do me a favor? I want you to stay there and wait for me and Satoshi there. We’re on the way to pick you up. We have to go somewhere.”
“Eeeh?? Where?? But, Jun... I have to wait Sho-chan here at the station and I can’t leave. What if Sho-chan arrive and...”
“Aiba-chan...” it’s Ohno-kun’s voice who interupted me. He sounded so weak and his voice trembled, “Please, you have to come with us. It’s... It’s about Sho.” I widened my eyes,
“You guys know where Sho-chan is?? Where is he now??”
“Aiba-chan,please... Just stay there and wait for us, okay.” Ohno-kun seemed to ignore my question. I sighed,
“Okay.” I didn’t dare to ask further because they sounded so weird. It seemed like they’re hiding something from me. Is there any problem between Jun and Ohno-kun?? And then what it got to do with Sho?? Well, maybe I should ask them about it later.
After 15 minutes of waiting in front of the station, I finally saw Jun’s car approaching. I immediately got in the back seat, when he stopped the car in front of me. But what I didn’t expect to welcome me inside the car was Ohno-kun with his red and swollen eyes and Jun’s tensed face. Did they just got a fight between couple? I wanted to ask them about Sho-chan but as I could sense a heavy atmosphere between both of them, I just kept silent while Jun brought three of us to somewhere that I could guess the place where Sho-chan was.
After 30 minutes driving, finally three of us arrived at our destiniton. Jun stopped the car. Wait?! Is it... a hospital? I couldn’t stop wondering and finally asked Jun,
“Jun, why are we in the hospital? I thought we wil meet Sho-chan and...”, I couldn’t continue my words when suddenly I realized something.
“Jun...” I trembled. My tears started to flow again,” Did something happened to Sho-chan?”
Jun kept silent. He lowered his head and grabbed the wheel tighter.
“JUN! ANSWER ME!” I shouted at him. I was a bit startled because I’ve never shouted at Jun like that before. I could hear Ohno-kun choked sobs beside Jun.
“Masaki,” Jun finally turned his back and looked at me. He tried to hold back his tears, “Sho-kun... he... got stabbed by a drunk man on the way to station and now he’s unconscious at ICU... Masaki, wait!!” I didn’t wait for Jun to finish as I rushed out from the car and ran into the hospital, ignoring Jun’s yell at me from his car. My eyes got blurry, my head felt dizzy and I couldn’t breath properly. Sho-chan... It’s a lie, right? Please don’t leave me alone...
“Where... is.... ICU room?” I asked the moment I stood in front of the receptionist desk, breathless. My eyes brimmed with tears.
“Tu...turn right and then left. The ICU room is at the end of the corridor, sir.” The nurse stammered while pointing the way I should go.
I mumbled ‘thanks’ to her and immediately followed her direction. I bumped to many people along the way but I didn’t care. I had to clarify myself that what Jun had said was just a lie. It must be just a prank and Sho was waiting with his smile inside the room.
When I saw a room that written ‘ICU’ on the door, I tried to get in. But when I was about to open the door, a nurse held me back.
"Pardon me, sir, but you are not allowed to enter the room at this moment. We’re in the middle of an urgent surgery right now. Please wait in the waiting room outside."
"But, I need to see my boyfriend. I need to know how his condition is. Please..." I cried while begging at her. She shook her head slightly and patted my shoulder,
“I’m really sorry, sir, but our doctors are trying their best right now to save him and it’s better if you don’t interfere them.”
Jun and Ohno-kun came not long after that and Jun immediately hugged me tightly while caressing my back. I hugged him back and cried uncontrollably in his arms,
“Jun... It’s just a lie, isn’t it? Please say yes, Jun... I... I don’t want to lose him, Jun... I can’t live without him... I...”
“Sshh... Masaki... He’ll be alright. The doctors are trying their best to save him, aren’t they? So you have to believe at them,okay?” Jun hugged me tighter. I could feel that Jun was also tremble and held his tears to come out. Ohno-kun, who stood beside Jun all this time, cried silently and patted my shoulder. He looked at the nurse and asked with trembling voice,
“Could you tell us about his condition inside, please...”
I slowly released Jun’s arms around me and faced the nurse while wiping my tears with my hand.
She looked at me, Jun then Ohno-kun then took a deep breath before explained,
“He is striving against his critical period now. The wound in his stomache is too deep and his head seemed to crash pretty hard. Probably because he fell after being stabbed. Excuse me, but I have to go back inside. " the nurse walked away in a hurry.
I stared at the floor, thinking what the nurse has just said a while ago. Does that mean the wound is very serious? Sho-chan... please hang in there...the doctors are going to save you. I prayed silently in my heart when Jun patted my shoulder. I looked at him and I realized that Jun was eyeing someone at the corner of the waiting room.
I followed where he was looking at and my eyes fell on two person at that corner. Sho-chan’s parents. His father was standing while made a call. He looked very serious. His mother sat on one of the couch while crying all the time. I slowly walked toward them,
“Mom...” I said softly, couldn’t hold back my tears.
I remembered one day, Sho-chan’s mother asked me to call her ‘Mom’ instead of ‘Sakurai-san’ because she already accepted me in the family the moment she knew about my relationship with Sho-chan. She didn’t really mind about Sho being a gay, as long as her only son could find happiness and love in the person he choose. ‘I believe that you are a good man and I know you will make Sho happy, that’s why I will give both of you my blessing and remember you have to call me ‘Mom’ because I’ve considered you like my own son already.’ I remembered she said that while smiling warmly then hugging me. She really a mother with an angel’s heart for me. And now…
“Masaki...” she stood up from the couch and immediately hugged me. I hugged her back while crying uncontrollably in her embrace. She caressed my back softly with one hand and patted my head with her other hand,
“Let’s just pray for the best, ne, Masaki... We all know that Sho is a strong person. He will be alright.” She said between her sobs. I nodded slightly and hugged her tighter.
“He will be alright.” I heard Sho-chan’s father said while patted my shoulder. I looked up and saw Sakurai-san looking at me with no expression then he headed outside the room.
Until around two years of my relationship with Sho-chan, I never know either he gives his blessing for us or not. His expression was always same, rather no expression or nonchalantly. Sho-chan never said anything about his father’s opinion either. Well, maybe it didn’t matter for Sho-chan but it definitely a serious matter for me. I could feel that he didn’t fully accept Sho-chan’s being a gay and it made me sad and guilty. It seemed like I was the reason Sho-chan turned into a gay.
I sighed. It’s already two hours since the surgery began and still no one of the doctors or nurses came out from the ICU room. Mom and I were sitting while grabbing each others’ hand. She didn’t stop to give reasurring words to me that Sho would be alright. Once in a while she asked me about our relationship. I tried to smile and told her about my days with Sho-chan. It hurts everytime I tried to remember those days when right now the person I talked about was dying inside that room.
Suddenly ICU door was opened and a doctor came toward us. I felt a bit relieved when someone finally came out from that room. I really wanted to know what happened inside, how was the surgery, how Sho-chan condition was at that moment, but when I saw expression in the doctor’s face, I didn’t have courage to open my mouth to say something. His expression was between serious and tense.
“Is there any family member of Sakurai Sho-san?” asked the doctor while looking at us. Mom immediately approached the doctor and said with trembling voice,
“I’m his mother. How is my son, sensei?” Jun, Satoshi and I stood behind Mom, couldn’t wait to hear what the doctor was going to say.
“Your son got stabbed in his stomach. From the wound that is too deep, I could presume that he got stabbed more than once.”
I gasped and covered my mouth with my trembling hands. Tears started to flow again from my eyes. Sho-chan... More than once… Why did this have to happen to you? The doctor continued his explanation,
“But thank godness it didn’t hit his internal organs, so we may still have some hope that he can be saved. But...” he hesitated. I looked at the doctor. He seemed agitated and I couldn’t stop to ask him,
“But what, sensei? Did something happen to Sho-chan, sensei?” Jun who stood beside me grabbed my hand to calm me down a bit. The doctor took a deep breath and continued,
“But he loss a lot of blood and we should immediately perform a blood transfusion for Sakurai-san. Unfortunately we are out of stock for blood type A and...”
“I will donate my blood, sensei. I’m his mother after all. I will ask my husband to donate too.” Mom suddenly interupted the doctor. He nodded slightly then looked at three of us behind Mom. Ohno-kun understood the meaning and said to the doctor,
“Our blood type is A too. We will help to donate, sensei.” The doctor smiled a bit and asked Mom to go with him to arrange the transfusion process. Not long after, the both of them left to the doctor’s office, leaving the three of us there. Then Jun turned his head to look at me.
“Masaki...” I tried my best to hide my hurt feeling and faked a smile at Jun.
“It’s too bad my blood type is AB,ne...” I laughed bitterly and patted Jun’s shoulder, “It’s okay. I will wait you guys here. Just go. Sho-chan needs your bloods as soon as possible, right?”
Jun hesitated but finally nodded his head and headed to the doctor’s office with Ohno-kun, leaving me alone. I dropped on my knees and looked blankly at the ICU door. Sho-chan needed help but at the same time I couldn’t do anything. I felt useless at the moment. Why in the critical moment like this I had to be different from the others.
“Damn it!! Damn it!!!!” I hit the wall beside me with my fist and tears started to flow again from my eyes. What kind of boyfriend I am? When my lover need my help, here I am, only crying and can’t do anything. You are so useless, Masaki.
“Hey, are you okay?” suddenly I heard a woman’s voice beside me. I wiped my tears then looked up. I saw a beautiful woman stood next to me. She seemed worried while looking at me. I tried to stand up and smiled at her.
“I’m okay. Just a bit tired.” I tried to smile at her. I was a bit startled when suddenly she chuckled a bit while shaking her head slightly,
“I can see that you are not okay. You look pale. Ah! Do you want a sandwich? I bet you haven’t ate dinner yet, have you? Here,” she offered me a sandwich while smiling at me. I wanted to refuse her offer but she insisted,
“Don’t say ‘No’ and just take it. You really need it and besides I can’t carry you on the back if you are suddenly fainted because of starving, right?” she joked. I smiled and took the sandwich from her hand,
“Thank you, and don’t worry I won’t suddenly fainted in front of you. Ah! I’m Aiba Masaki.” I introduced myself. She smiled and bowed a little,
“Nice to meet you Aiba-san. I’m Horikita Maki.”
I almost dropped the sandwich she gave me. Ho...Horikita Maki?? What is she doing here now?? Why does my heart feel anxious when I see her?? Horikita Maki is the girl Sho-chan once told me in the past. She was Sho-chan’s highschool classmate who were madly in love with him and finally confessed to him in their second year but he rejected her because he considered her like his own little sister. Don’t tell me she’s going to...
I shook my head slowly. Don’t over thinking, Masaki. Just focus on Sho-chan’s condition now. That’s the most important thing.I tried to smile and wanted to start a conversation with her when suddenly I heard Mom’s voice from afar,
“Maki-chan...” Mom walked faster toward our direction and immediately hugged her. “Maki-chan, thank you. Thank you very much. If you are not in that place at that moment, I don’t know how Sho will be saved.” She sobbed while hugging Horikita-san. Sho-chan’s father came to both of them and patted her shoulder while mumbling ‘Thank you’ and smiled warmly at her. I lowered my head.
She... she is the one who found Sho-chan first at the scene. I should be thankful at her, but why my heart hurts a lot? Why do I feel more useless than before and it seems that I’m not needed here?
I was a bit startled when I felt someone grabbed my hand. I looked up and saw Jun and Ohno-kun have already back from the transfusion. Jun, as if he could read my thought, suddenly looked into my eyes and said in whisper,
“You are the one who are needed most by Sho-kun. Eventhough it’s only your presence here, but I’m sure it will help Sho-kun to struggle harder to come back for us, to able to see you again. Don’t forget about it. And don’t lose to that woman. She’s only in the past. Even Sho-kun had already rejected her. Show her who you are to Sho-kun!”
A tear dropped from my eyes but I smiled at Jun. I was really grateful to have a bestfriend like him. Ohno-kun smiled at me and dragged me towards Horikita-san who was chatting with Sho-chan’s parents.
“Maki-chan, thank you for your call before about Sho. I immediately called auntie, uncle and Aiba-chan here after you called.”
Horikita-san seemed a bit startled when Ohno-kun mention about me and said, “Ah! Aiba-san... You...” but Ohno-kun didn’t let her finish her words,
“Aiba-chan is Sho’s boyfriend.”
I could see her shock expression in her eyes but she hid it and smiled awkwardly at me,
“Ooh... I’m sorry, Aiba-san. I didn’t know that you...”
“It’s okay, Horikita-san. You don’t have to apologize. It’s my fault I didn’t properly introduce myself earlier to you.” I bowed slightly to her.
“Masaki, this is Horikita Maki. She attended at the same class as Sho and Satoshi for three years in highschool. She’s the one who first found Sho in the scene and she immediately called police after that. That’s why she had to go to police office before went here, to report about the incident. Thank godness the culprit now has been arrested.” Mom looked at me then to her, “Maki-chan, thank you for bringing Sho’s bag from the police office with you and giving it back to us. I will keep it until Sho wake up.”
Horikita-san smiled and shook her head slightly, “It’s nothing, auntie. By the way, nothing items are missing, right?” Mom opened Sho-chan’s bag and slowly checked his stuffs inside the bag,
“Hmm.. nothing is gone, I think,” she put out Sho-chan’s stuff one by one, “ His phone, his wallet, and his files from his office are still safe inside. And this is...” when she tried to put out the last stuff, the ICU door opened. All of us was immediately looked at the same doctor who came out from the ICU room earlier. We didn’t know that Mom was still trying to put out the last stuff and gasped softly when she looked what was that. She immediately put it back inside Sho-chan’s bag and looked at the doctor when he was going to say something. He looked very tensed and serious,
“Sakurai-san, I have a good news for you. The blood tranfusion for Sakurai Sho-san was completely successful,” I heard all of the person in the waiting room sighed in relieve. But I couldn’t. I could sense something was happened inside there. If not, there’s no way the doctor looked very serious right now. That’s why I couldn’t help to ask the doctor,
“Sensei, is there something happened?”
He sighed heavily and continued his explaining, “If there’s a good news, it means there’s also a bad news for it,” he looked at Mom,
“Sakurai-san, I’m sorry but it seems that your son’s struggle has not ended yet. He’s in comatose and it can be for weeks, months or years...” I couldn’t hear the rest when suddenly I felt dizzy and the last thing I heard was Jun screaming my name before suddenly everything became dark.
-tbc-
Hello guys~ we're back with chapter 3 on New Year!! \(^o^)/
well,,it seems that the story will be more angst (I think XD) start from this chapter *get more tissues TT_TT*
and please don't kill us for putting Horikita Maki in this story m(_ _)m
we have a proper reason why we choose Horikita Maki and you will know it later XD
Oh! You can read the previous chapters here :
Chapter 1 // Chapter 2
The next chapter will be updated in two weeks (or less than two weeks XD)
Happy New Year 2015 for all of you guys and It's Shonuary month!!! XD
Comments are really appreciated~ <333