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how am i supposed to know what im gonna do with my life when im 17?
i mean, when i was like 8 id figured 17 was old, almost 18, almost legally adult. but now that being 18s less than 6 months away it doesnt seem old at all.
i dont feel ready to be called an "adult." suits and fax machines still scare me a little. every time i turn the ignition key i cant believe the state has allowed me to be in control of a 4-wheel weapon. ill still behave for chocolate, and just the fact that i still hafta be bribed to behave must be sure proof that im no adult, right?
i still fight with my brothers over the last piece of cake. i still compete in staring contests unmercifully. how can i be expected to choose a president when i cant even choose a college?
honestly i think i missed some growing somewhere. either that or being "adult" isnt what i though it was.
i keep thinking i might just be peter pan maturity-wise, even though intellectually im more than there.
i dunno.
this college thing feels wrong.
this responsibility thing seems too soon.
and sometimes i still wish i had to call my parents for a ride from a deserted carnival or concert venue.
i missed something...and im not sure what it is.
i mean, when i was like 8 id figured 17 was old, almost 18, almost legally adult. but now that being 18s less than 6 months away it doesnt seem old at all.
i dont feel ready to be called an "adult." suits and fax machines still scare me a little. every time i turn the ignition key i cant believe the state has allowed me to be in control of a 4-wheel weapon. ill still behave for chocolate, and just the fact that i still hafta be bribed to behave must be sure proof that im no adult, right?
i still fight with my brothers over the last piece of cake. i still compete in staring contests unmercifully. how can i be expected to choose a president when i cant even choose a college?
honestly i think i missed some growing somewhere. either that or being "adult" isnt what i though it was.
i keep thinking i might just be peter pan maturity-wise, even though intellectually im more than there.
i dunno.
this college thing feels wrong.
this responsibility thing seems too soon.
and sometimes i still wish i had to call my parents for a ride from a deserted carnival or concert venue.
i missed something...and im not sure what it is.