i think....i....i'm all wrong....
the self....it is who you are...it is who you are completely and totally....forever.....
i can't be myself......cause the road to hell is paved with good intentions.....
as much good as i do...as thoughtful, caring, loving, understanding, genuine and honest as I can be....
apparently....i am only a sucker who gets walked all over....one who gets used......
cause you know....it's impossible to do a good thing for your friends....just for the sake of doing them....
I think....I may leave.....cause.....the person I am...does not seem to work well...
as good as i am....it's not seen....as much as i deserve....i guess i truly don't....so....i refuse to take my life....
but i may need to just leave this one....
I just want to be happy. I want to be at peace. I want to be myself.
being shattered....is horrible....I would rather be insane....
no one....ever seems to be there....i don't get a shoulder....
i can't text for help.....i can't call you.......because....there is no one....
i write text messages....venting, cry, angry, totally depressed only to realize i have no one...to send it to.....no one will call me back....of course...why would i have anyone
but if i decide to be cold...and mean...like everyone else....i am seen as a true asshole...cause it's not like me....
the type of person I am.....can't apply to my world....my personal everyday life/world....
i am ready to forget all of you.....
this wolf.....needs to leave....this pack......he needs to leave this territory....
my mind hurts....my eyes are sore....this bottled up pain and angst is about to kill me...
i talk to no one...so i have no outlet......nothing leaves me.....so a complete mask.....
to hide a pain so deep no one....can save me
"Never telling the truth how this life eats away. "
"And I look so strong
when the weight of all the world
don't take its toll.
And I'd choose my sides
if I believed in what was right,
but I'm all wrong. "
i can't be myself......cause the road to hell is paved with good intentions.....
as much good as i do...as thoughtful, caring, loving, understanding, genuine and honest as I can be....
apparently....i am only a sucker who gets walked all over....one who gets used......
cause you know....it's impossible to do a good thing for your friends....just for the sake of doing them....
I think....I may leave.....cause.....the person I am...does not seem to work well...
as good as i am....it's not seen....as much as i deserve....i guess i truly don't....so....i refuse to take my life....
but i may need to just leave this one....
I just want to be happy. I want to be at peace. I want to be myself.
being shattered....is horrible....I would rather be insane....
no one....ever seems to be there....i don't get a shoulder....
i can't text for help.....i can't call you.......because....there is no one....
i write text messages....venting, cry, angry, totally depressed only to realize i have no one...to send it to.....no one will call me back....of course...why would i have anyone
but if i decide to be cold...and mean...like everyone else....i am seen as a true asshole...cause it's not like me....
the type of person I am.....can't apply to my world....my personal everyday life/world....
i am ready to forget all of you.....
this wolf.....needs to leave....this pack......he needs to leave this territory....
my mind hurts....my eyes are sore....this bottled up pain and angst is about to kill me...
i talk to no one...so i have no outlet......nothing leaves me.....so a complete mask.....
to hide a pain so deep no one....can save me
"Never telling the truth how this life eats away. "
"And I look so strong
when the weight of all the world
don't take its toll.
And I'd choose my sides
if I believed in what was right,
but I'm all wrong. "