yea....i'm the biggest lyer in the world...
yea....i'm the biggest lyer in the world...and probably one of the best....i don't know but i talk to no one about anything..and wat people do know i make i know so much more on them.....i guess i don't trust people...i guess i have trust issues...i don't talk about my problems...i don't talk to people....i don't call people anymore for help with my problems...because you know not for nothing but you all say your there for me....but i have called many when i was in need and nothing....so wat's the fucking point..you know i am not saying i hate you all but its hard when you say you're there and...well you not....lately in life and even over the the course of my life..i have become more and more untrusting of people....because i have been broken by the little bits of information that i have given out....and i break to easily....so wats the point in talking...i want to give up....
i always have this feeling of being hated, of not being good enough, and of being a failure....i get so stressed out and worked up...i have so much angst, and anger, and the anxiety is intense....so nerve wrecking...and i am lost, depressed and in pain...it has mad me dark, and unhappy....
there are days where i just want to cry and cry and or even just kill myself..but these suicidal thoughts are nothing to worry about...Vlad, me is not one to ever do that even if i think it...i don't have the guts to....
although sometimes...i want to close my eyes while driving on a rainy day, hit another car, hit the e-brake, swerve into a guardrail and die....and i realise that no good would come from it....this suffering that i create is better then i suffering that i would have other feels...
i just have issues...and nothing can help....so i'll close my eyes and none of you will tell the difference...
and when you ask...i'll just tell another lie that you can't see through....
"and nothing can save you...cause no one can help me...so i'll just crash and i'll burn and then i'll wake up the next morning cause i failed once again and here we go here we go....."
i always have this feeling of being hated, of not being good enough, and of being a failure....i get so stressed out and worked up...i have so much angst, and anger, and the anxiety is intense....so nerve wrecking...and i am lost, depressed and in pain...it has mad me dark, and unhappy....
there are days where i just want to cry and cry and or even just kill myself..but these suicidal thoughts are nothing to worry about...Vlad, me is not one to ever do that even if i think it...i don't have the guts to....
although sometimes...i want to close my eyes while driving on a rainy day, hit another car, hit the e-brake, swerve into a guardrail and die....and i realise that no good would come from it....this suffering that i create is better then i suffering that i would have other feels...
i just have issues...and nothing can help....so i'll close my eyes and none of you will tell the difference...
and when you ask...i'll just tell another lie that you can't see through....
"and nothing can save you...cause no one can help me...so i'll just crash and i'll burn and then i'll wake up the next morning cause i failed once again and here we go here we go....."