Then and now
You know, I have these very distinct memories of singing "I will survive" at band camp will Ellen and Caitlin and Lillia and Larissa etc. and it very much being a girl power song. Talking about the trials and tribulations that one goes through with a relationship and how we are all strong individual people and can get through it.
Compare that to now, when I hear not the original, but a Cake cover of "I will survive", and think about how true those words still ring. But in such a different context. I think about all the friendships I have, or don't have as the case may be. I mean, I want to pour my heart and soul out to you, but if you're not there? I will survive. And when you come walking back, things won't be the same. Because I don't need that. I do have all my life to live and I do have all my love to give. And I want to give it....I love loving people and taking care of them and being close to them. But if it's not reciprocated? If you're not there? Then I don't have time for that shit. I don't want to have time for that shit.
First I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
But I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to carry on
and so you're back
from outer space
I just walked in to find you here
with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed my stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
you'd be back to bother me
Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
you think I'd crumble
you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive
It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart
kept trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart
and I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
Now I hold my head up high
and you see me
somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
still in love with you
and so you felt like dropping in
and just expect me to be free
now I'm saving all my loving
for someone who's loving me
Things change, yet at the same time, nothing changes at all.
Compare that to now, when I hear not the original, but a Cake cover of "I will survive", and think about how true those words still ring. But in such a different context. I think about all the friendships I have, or don't have as the case may be. I mean, I want to pour my heart and soul out to you, but if you're not there? I will survive. And when you come walking back, things won't be the same. Because I don't need that. I do have all my life to live and I do have all my love to give. And I want to give it....I love loving people and taking care of them and being close to them. But if it's not reciprocated? If you're not there? Then I don't have time for that shit. I don't want to have time for that shit.
First I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
But I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to carry on
and so you're back
from outer space
I just walked in to find you here
with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed my stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
you'd be back to bother me
Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
you think I'd crumble
you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive
It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart
kept trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart
and I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
Now I hold my head up high
and you see me
somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
still in love with you
and so you felt like dropping in
and just expect me to be free
now I'm saving all my loving
for someone who's loving me
Things change, yet at the same time, nothing changes at all.