on the home front
i was suposed to be induced sunday evening but i called that off. many reasons, scary consequences. uterine ruptures, c-sections, long and extra painful labor... it seems that people in america are extremely big, and they have big babies, because of all this "food" we have access too. so they want babies pushed out before they get too big for our little tiny pelvis' not to mention these prenatals woman have to take or everyone looks at you like your utterly insane. where else are they taken? is it too far of a stretch to think that trying to force health on poor mommy they are actually making poor baby HUGE!? well, i supose im a little upset about it cuz i havent taken any for three weeks. my doctor was too busy to think of writing me another percription when i brought it too her attention. i supose that is the sort of service medicaid patients should expect to recieve. honestly though, its made me think twice about the medical prefession as a whole. (as if ive never done that before *cough* psych meds *caugh*) without the prenatals i might be a bit hungrier and sleepier but im no more cranky and no less determined to rearange every piece of furnature i own over and over again until i pass out in exaustion. my nails and hair arnt growing any slower and infact, im actually sleeping deeper at night and feeling more movement than ever when my son is awake. im also not gaining weight by the bucket load. as it turns out, in my reading i came across the fact that in order for labor and delivery, the mother and baby must be in tune and ready for the birth to begin. stress can slow and stops labor and having the wrong person in the room is disasterous to the process. it makes sence that first time mothers would go weeks past their due dates with all the worring about pain and uncertianty about taking care of a baby. that, mixed with the fast paced and constantly stressed out world we live in, its a wonder anyone would go into labor on their own. the facade of it all makes me feel really sick.
and heres how i have it figured: if life was created by the Allmighty, as ive chosen to belive for the best part of the last two decades, then why put so much faith in the "professionals." unless you really believe that doctors have the power to create life. come on. God made the female body ready made to produce life at conception. our eggs were intact and waiting from the moment we were concieved. our uterus is the strongest and most amazing muscle that exists as it expands to fill the entire torso and its interlocking pieces are designed to endure the pressure of an entirely new life and bring it into the world. the process is simple isnt it? once pregnant, there is no thinking involved. my body and my baby tell me when and what to eat, its telepathy. there is no other thinking nessicary. i didnt wake up one day and go "ok, today i need to create ten fingers..." or better yet "i need to get to the doctor so they can give my baby his liver!" NO, God puts all the pieces together. why the heck shouldnt i trust him to take care of everything else as well?
babies are born everywhere, all over the world. they were born for millions of years and they were born without the use of technology, or medication... never, has there ever been a case where labor hasnt started on its own. then why cant we wait? the last generation didnt have to force their babies into the world. why do we?
well, i guess the bottom line is that ive decided to do this Gods way. as much as i can anyway. i cannot escape fake food, i cannot escape cars and institutions and monitary dominance and clothing and "technology", but i can control what i do with my body and what i do for my children. i spend every day trying to intune with my baby for this gift of childbirth. i spend everyday going through contractions and wondering if they are going to get regular and trying to push past fears and doubts, and i spend everday praying that God stregnthens and stands by me. and i will wait, as long as im alowed, to let this be a real and natural delivery. i want to understand the labor pains the earth is going through, the way its described in the bible. i pray for this understanding, everyday. so i may better fulfill my purpose.
and heres how i have it figured: if life was created by the Allmighty, as ive chosen to belive for the best part of the last two decades, then why put so much faith in the "professionals." unless you really believe that doctors have the power to create life. come on. God made the female body ready made to produce life at conception. our eggs were intact and waiting from the moment we were concieved. our uterus is the strongest and most amazing muscle that exists as it expands to fill the entire torso and its interlocking pieces are designed to endure the pressure of an entirely new life and bring it into the world. the process is simple isnt it? once pregnant, there is no thinking involved. my body and my baby tell me when and what to eat, its telepathy. there is no other thinking nessicary. i didnt wake up one day and go "ok, today i need to create ten fingers..." or better yet "i need to get to the doctor so they can give my baby his liver!" NO, God puts all the pieces together. why the heck shouldnt i trust him to take care of everything else as well?
babies are born everywhere, all over the world. they were born for millions of years and they were born without the use of technology, or medication... never, has there ever been a case where labor hasnt started on its own. then why cant we wait? the last generation didnt have to force their babies into the world. why do we?
well, i guess the bottom line is that ive decided to do this Gods way. as much as i can anyway. i cannot escape fake food, i cannot escape cars and institutions and monitary dominance and clothing and "technology", but i can control what i do with my body and what i do for my children. i spend every day trying to intune with my baby for this gift of childbirth. i spend everyday going through contractions and wondering if they are going to get regular and trying to push past fears and doubts, and i spend everday praying that God stregnthens and stands by me. and i will wait, as long as im alowed, to let this be a real and natural delivery. i want to understand the labor pains the earth is going through, the way its described in the bible. i pray for this understanding, everyday. so i may better fulfill my purpose.