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i don't know what is wrong with me.
i just sit here and read and re-read my posts and it just isn't me.
i'm such a fucking freak.
i'm giong to the ed meet in london, but i'm scared. scared i will have one of those days where i can't say a word. just sit there. scared people will realise what a self-pitying idiot i am.
i don't want to... disappoint?
that's not the right word but fuck it.
school again tomorrow.
fucking brilliant.
and i felt fine not 10 minutes ago.
i hate this.
i just sit here and read and re-read my posts and it just isn't me.
i'm such a fucking freak.
i'm giong to the ed meet in london, but i'm scared. scared i will have one of those days where i can't say a word. just sit there. scared people will realise what a self-pitying idiot i am.
i don't want to... disappoint?
that's not the right word but fuck it.
school again tomorrow.
fucking brilliant.
and i felt fine not 10 minutes ago.
i hate this.