It's not that I can't find worth in anything, it's just that I can't find worth in enough
I love this cd :D
I just ordered my Leeds fest tickets today too, so looks like I'm seeing the Foos, QOTSA and Incubus! Yay! *bounces*
And I'm seeing 36Crazyfists in Manchester on Thurs! Just don't ask me how I'm paying for all this. I've been working pretty much everyday for the last 2 weeks, and I'm so sick of that bloody swimming pool! I could have been loaded, but I've spent it all already. Ah well. There's no point in having it just so it can sit in my bank account.
I've got my appointment tomorrow. Blah. I can predict what we'll be talking about. I've been drinking everyday this week. Normally I manage at least 2 days sober. So yeah. I obviously have the potential to be a fantastic alcoholic and so doing fuck myself up even more. But it's better than cutting, burning, breaking my wrist on purpose, right? I'm not so sure anymore. No matter what I do, I'll find another way to self-destruct. So if I stop drinking, starving, puking; what next? Actually, I don't think I can. So I'm screwed, basically.
I am so confused about Tom aswell. We went out last night, and I really like him but... I dunno. He just pisses me off so much sometimes, and then there's Tim aswell and... aaarrggghhhh! When he goes off to marine training I wont see him anymore anyway, so I might aswell just enjoy it while it lasts and then forget about it when he goes I suppose.
Sometimes I wish I was the only person alive. At least if I was alone, it might be okay to feel so lonely. Even surrounded by people; I might aswell be the only person in the room. It just makes me sad for no reason. Pathetic really.
I'm going out for lunch with Sarah tomorrow which should be fun :D Haven't seen her for ages, it'll be nice to catch up.
I just ordered my Leeds fest tickets today too, so looks like I'm seeing the Foos, QOTSA and Incubus! Yay! *bounces*
And I'm seeing 36Crazyfists in Manchester on Thurs! Just don't ask me how I'm paying for all this. I've been working pretty much everyday for the last 2 weeks, and I'm so sick of that bloody swimming pool! I could have been loaded, but I've spent it all already. Ah well. There's no point in having it just so it can sit in my bank account.
I've got my appointment tomorrow. Blah. I can predict what we'll be talking about. I've been drinking everyday this week. Normally I manage at least 2 days sober. So yeah. I obviously have the potential to be a fantastic alcoholic and so doing fuck myself up even more. But it's better than cutting, burning, breaking my wrist on purpose, right? I'm not so sure anymore. No matter what I do, I'll find another way to self-destruct. So if I stop drinking, starving, puking; what next? Actually, I don't think I can. So I'm screwed, basically.
I am so confused about Tom aswell. We went out last night, and I really like him but... I dunno. He just pisses me off so much sometimes, and then there's Tim aswell and... aaarrggghhhh! When he goes off to marine training I wont see him anymore anyway, so I might aswell just enjoy it while it lasts and then forget about it when he goes I suppose.
Sometimes I wish I was the only person alive. At least if I was alone, it might be okay to feel so lonely. Even surrounded by people; I might aswell be the only person in the room. It just makes me sad for no reason. Pathetic really.
I'm going out for lunch with Sarah tomorrow which should be fun :D Haven't seen her for ages, it'll be nice to catch up.