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[icecoldblue]

EDIT: So I broke down and called him. He apparently didn't call me because he thought I was mad for a stupid reason. At the time I just bitched and told him my side, but now that I'm starting to go over the whole conversation I'm realizing he was being amazingly selfish even when he was apologizing. His argument was that he had a great time and he

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[icecoldblue]

Honestly, it's not so much that he left, because it's not like I don't think he can go off and make his own mistakes/have fun without me, but it was the fact that he just kinda peaced out on me and left me there before I even had a change to really think about it. Like, we won, and then they were like
"FRENCH QUARTER" and they left...I was still kinda worried about the fire in the street and the time. I mean seriously.

I guess I was a little offended too because he didn't even pause to think that maybe I wanted to celebrate with him too. His excuse was literally well I thought if I went you'd go, and I thought you would have fun, you shouldn't have been stupid and should have wanted to come. That's not an apology that explains anything. If he's supposed to be my boyfriend you'd think his priority would be me, which maybe I'm selfish. I don't know. I think it has a lot to do with bruises from being left behind last weekend. That and we'd been together all day as a group then BAM, gone.

Ugh. I have such conflicted feelings. I think I'm looking for a serious relationship, like a future life partner thing, and he's just looking to have a girlfriend around to hang out with when he goes out. Our priorities and maturity levels are different. It also doesn't help he's already blurted out he plans on never getting married, which just rubs salt into the wound of being called 4 times over a three week holiday, 3 of which I called and he called back. I mean...REALLY? And he never does anything particularly nice for me, well...that's unfair, I mean to say he never does anything thoughtful/special. I do little things for him all the time. It's just all building up. I think I'm going to talk to him tonight...we'll see how this nightmare goes.

[silvercaladan]

Yeah, that's cool to be mad about. I mean, wtf, he's your boyfriend, he doesn't get to say HEY BYE and then run off without a word. He couldn't take five minutes to talk to you alone?? Its cool if he wants to run off, but there's seeing what you want to do slash how you feel first.

And yeah, if you're looking for something serious, and he's not? You're gunna want to either get that straight, or cut it off. No sense in wasting time and worry on a kid who cares for neither. Especially when there's gotta be someone out there waiting for you to dote upon/dote back.

[silvercaladan]

PS MY BEST WISHES.

And when you come up this weekend we can paint the town red.