Update time
So, I've finally got some time. I haven't really been super busy but I'm staying at Steve's house in Oneida and I don't get on the computer a lot cause it would involve me either A) using Steve's laptop or B) using the family computer, both of which when I do use I feel like I'm imposing.
In other words: This won't be too long.
I don't really know how to describe the mood I've been in lately other than just...blah. I haven't been happy in a long time and I don't really know why. There are some factors that I'm aware of, but they shouldn't be making me this upset so obviously there's something else.
I guess it's some what a form of feeling alone. I know that sounds rediculous because I'm pretty much with Steve 24/7 but still, I just feel really, really alone sometimes. Maybe it's because I'm not living right there in Clinton with Sarah this summer. She just said how "it's me here, and you there," which makes me feel awful. But still, it's not like I would be much happier living with my family. In fact, no matter how alone I feel here in Oneida at Steve's house, it's no where near how depressed I would be if I were stuck with my family all summer.
I don't know why I feel alone, especially cause I'm with one of my absolute best friends all the time. It might stem from the fact that we really don't do anything, and have nothing to do til we start work in a few weeks.
And then there's the phsyical stuff. I've been getting severely dizzy and lightheaded lately. I don't know why. I mean, I'm eating regularly (well, regularly for me anyways) so it's not hunger. I haven't really been drinking a lot, or at least, not as much as I did at school, so it's not that. I'm getting a fairly good amount of sleep (about 5 to 6 hours a night, which beats the 3 to 4 I got at school) so it's not that.
Oh well, I'm sure I'll get over it eventually.
I don't really know if I should just keep consistently whining in here, it makes me sound a whole lot worse than I actually am. I know some of you are worried, but you shouldn't be. I'm fine most of the time, this is just really the only place where I can vent about most stuff so I hold a lot of it in until I get time to come here.
All right, I gots to go shower/pack/head out. We're going up to the lake for a few days. I would say that I'm excited to be up there for a few days but there's this kid from Ithaca coming with us that I really, really don't like. Haven't liked him since freshman year, and he's going to be staying with us for the two days we're up there. As you can probably tell, I'm so excited. Whatever, he's friends with Steve so I'll play nice of course; I don't have much of a choice.
It's going to be an interesting few days.
In other words: This won't be too long.
I don't really know how to describe the mood I've been in lately other than just...blah. I haven't been happy in a long time and I don't really know why. There are some factors that I'm aware of, but they shouldn't be making me this upset so obviously there's something else.
I guess it's some what a form of feeling alone. I know that sounds rediculous because I'm pretty much with Steve 24/7 but still, I just feel really, really alone sometimes. Maybe it's because I'm not living right there in Clinton with Sarah this summer. She just said how "it's me here, and you there," which makes me feel awful. But still, it's not like I would be much happier living with my family. In fact, no matter how alone I feel here in Oneida at Steve's house, it's no where near how depressed I would be if I were stuck with my family all summer.
I don't know why I feel alone, especially cause I'm with one of my absolute best friends all the time. It might stem from the fact that we really don't do anything, and have nothing to do til we start work in a few weeks.
And then there's the phsyical stuff. I've been getting severely dizzy and lightheaded lately. I don't know why. I mean, I'm eating regularly (well, regularly for me anyways) so it's not hunger. I haven't really been drinking a lot, or at least, not as much as I did at school, so it's not that. I'm getting a fairly good amount of sleep (about 5 to 6 hours a night, which beats the 3 to 4 I got at school) so it's not that.
Oh well, I'm sure I'll get over it eventually.
I don't really know if I should just keep consistently whining in here, it makes me sound a whole lot worse than I actually am. I know some of you are worried, but you shouldn't be. I'm fine most of the time, this is just really the only place where I can vent about most stuff so I hold a lot of it in until I get time to come here.
All right, I gots to go shower/pack/head out. We're going up to the lake for a few days. I would say that I'm excited to be up there for a few days but there's this kid from Ithaca coming with us that I really, really don't like. Haven't liked him since freshman year, and he's going to be staying with us for the two days we're up there. As you can probably tell, I'm so excited. Whatever, he's friends with Steve so I'll play nice of course; I don't have much of a choice.
It's going to be an interesting few days.