Mar 19, 2006 09:30
Saturday: escaped from home, sat at the chilly pool, watched the sunset, counted ducks, and spent some time with Mr. iPod... I did a lotta nothings, mostly reflecting and trying to figure Something out. Lots-of-shit happens.
Pi-Day/Tuesday: ate pies in Calculus and tried to memorize the lyrics to the pi song (3.141592654...)
Wednesday: skipped school and headed to the beach with Tia and her loverboys... I like the beach, I like the ocean, I like volleyball, I like Hooters, and I like Tia and her friends...
Wednesday night: went to the mall with Rose and Richard, yall are mah favorite UF ppl... then we got some waffle cones at BaskinRobins, where the lady let us try every flavor of ice cream and even gave us a 15% discount (cuteness pays muahaha) :P
Thursday: slept in school (return to my routine) and played tetris
Friday: Chris decided he should surprise me, so we chilled for a bit before I went to work, and eventually bore myself to death afterwork becuz my friends failed to meet up with me... I hate you guys for going home early or having girlfriends! (yes every single of you! Gus, Mark, Juan, Patch, Nate, Norman, Jace)
Last nite: It was the best evening I ever had... the perfect weather on a perfect evening at a perfect place... things just worked out so well and so spontaneously, my heart was given wings and my body suddenly lost its gravitational attraction with the earth, I could almost fly.
I woke up at 6:30 from a dream this morning and my instinct told me to check the fone. still unconscious, I knew i had a miss call, without reading the time or who the caller was, I called back... hahahah I woke Kai and had a very pointless 30 second conversation, which I couldn't quite hear or understand. then I fell back asleep. IT was just soo random lmao...
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New friends made, old friendships dissolved, but new bonds formed. I feel more like a "Floater" than ever. My friendship/relationship life lacks stability, which I yearn for. I float from one group to another and never knowing who i will be close to from day to day. I understand this no more than I understand electricity in Physics (not at all). I like choices, but I hate decision-making... mainly becuz I HATE it even more if I don't get what I had decided to pursue.
I really think I should be happy... what else can a plain girl like me ask for? But Something is always bothering me, and no matter how hard I try to figure it out, Something won't reveal itself. As long as Something exists, I cannot feel complete.
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