we'll paint the future black if it needs a color.
i have been going to bed around 3-4 am for the last week and it is taking its toll.
every morning i wake up and say i will go to bed early, yet get immersed in cyber world or writing or texting or art or whatever.
i guess it gives me time to myself but i have been on the verge of passing out all day.
when i started livejournal i was writing knowing people would read it.
i guess i liked sharing my life with people, even though i generally don't like talking about myself.
then again, maybe that is why.
if i talk about myself, i am forcing the conversation on me, but on livejournal, people can choose to read it or not.
also i feel like most of what i do is uncredited..
i have two books of poetry and portfolio upon portfolio of art and no one ever sees it.. it's really depressing, actually.
even if i just had one admirer..
so i guess part of me wants people to just.. see me.
but now it seems everyone (except for you tristan :)) has stopped using livejournal, yet i still want to use it.
i guess now, though, it is more for personal reasons. though i would be elated if people started using it again.
that makes me happy, that i am still inclined to use it.
i'm sad savvy's account is deleted.. at least with everyone else, theirs are still active and there's a chance they'll come around.
livejournal used to be so hip.
every morning i wake up and say i will go to bed early, yet get immersed in cyber world or writing or texting or art or whatever.
i guess it gives me time to myself but i have been on the verge of passing out all day.
when i started livejournal i was writing knowing people would read it.
i guess i liked sharing my life with people, even though i generally don't like talking about myself.
then again, maybe that is why.
if i talk about myself, i am forcing the conversation on me, but on livejournal, people can choose to read it or not.
also i feel like most of what i do is uncredited..
i have two books of poetry and portfolio upon portfolio of art and no one ever sees it.. it's really depressing, actually.
even if i just had one admirer..
so i guess part of me wants people to just.. see me.
but now it seems everyone (except for you tristan :)) has stopped using livejournal, yet i still want to use it.
i guess now, though, it is more for personal reasons. though i would be elated if people started using it again.
that makes me happy, that i am still inclined to use it.
i'm sad savvy's account is deleted.. at least with everyone else, theirs are still active and there's a chance they'll come around.
livejournal used to be so hip.