I hate my life sometimes :(
Hey, I'm updating today since I update yesterday. 48 hours until I'm done with school. Thank god I can' stand it anymore. I need to get out of this hell hole I call home.
I went to Courtney's baby shower on sunday with Laura. She got bigger and the baby is due on the 20th or sooner. Joe has a mustanche now. Wow!!!! Anyway, it was good that I got to see him because he's one of closet buddies and I don't get a chance to see him since he moved to the valley. Those two have been doing well and I'm proud of them. Laura had a good time there too. She really liked Courtney and I thank her for letting Laura come.
I saw Ashley for the first time since we broke up. It felt a little weird because I hadn't seen her in 3 months and she asked me to come by so she could talk to me. Was it bad for me to do that? I don't know. We ended up talking for about 4 hours and traded stories. She knows I'm with Laura, and she told me she was a little jealous. Well in my own opinion, it was good to talk to her because it was putting alot of stress on me. Speaking of stress, I've been stressed out for the passed couple of days. I look like shit. My eyes were all baggy. Laura was worried about me and suched I go home and rest up. I really wanted to go to her choir banquet to show her support, but she was worried about me so she told me to go home and est and study for my finals. A lot of stuff is running through my head right now. My head really fucking hurts. My parents have been asking me, "why were you at ashley's?" God it gets on my fucking nerves when my parents do that. WISH THEY WOULD STOP!!!! It's none of their business.
The last couple of days have been hell. I cried some portions of last night. I tend to hide it. I cried earlier today because I didn't sleep very well. I love Laura so much. She's my #1 priority. I tend to put her on top because I love her and her feelings are more important. I'm not a selfish guy, I care about her so I put myself last. If she needs me, I'm there, even if I'm sick. I'll get out of bed and drive over to be with her. You name it, I'll do it.
Well I better get back to my studying. I'm trying to make my baby proud of me. I love her so much, I would do anything to make her happy. I wish i could have been at her banquet, but I couldn't. So I'll get back to studying...later people.
I went to Courtney's baby shower on sunday with Laura. She got bigger and the baby is due on the 20th or sooner. Joe has a mustanche now. Wow!!!! Anyway, it was good that I got to see him because he's one of closet buddies and I don't get a chance to see him since he moved to the valley. Those two have been doing well and I'm proud of them. Laura had a good time there too. She really liked Courtney and I thank her for letting Laura come.
I saw Ashley for the first time since we broke up. It felt a little weird because I hadn't seen her in 3 months and she asked me to come by so she could talk to me. Was it bad for me to do that? I don't know. We ended up talking for about 4 hours and traded stories. She knows I'm with Laura, and she told me she was a little jealous. Well in my own opinion, it was good to talk to her because it was putting alot of stress on me. Speaking of stress, I've been stressed out for the passed couple of days. I look like shit. My eyes were all baggy. Laura was worried about me and suched I go home and rest up. I really wanted to go to her choir banquet to show her support, but she was worried about me so she told me to go home and est and study for my finals. A lot of stuff is running through my head right now. My head really fucking hurts. My parents have been asking me, "why were you at ashley's?" God it gets on my fucking nerves when my parents do that. WISH THEY WOULD STOP!!!! It's none of their business.
The last couple of days have been hell. I cried some portions of last night. I tend to hide it. I cried earlier today because I didn't sleep very well. I love Laura so much. She's my #1 priority. I tend to put her on top because I love her and her feelings are more important. I'm not a selfish guy, I care about her so I put myself last. If she needs me, I'm there, even if I'm sick. I'll get out of bed and drive over to be with her. You name it, I'll do it.
Well I better get back to my studying. I'm trying to make my baby proud of me. I love her so much, I would do anything to make her happy. I wish i could have been at her banquet, but I couldn't. So I'll get back to studying...later people.