Happy/Depressed? Is that possible?
Well, right now I'm just writing a take home final for my Philosophy class. Today was an ok day. I woke up depressed this morning and I don't know why. I'm also worried about my grades. I'm on border line of not passing Political Science. If I get at least a C-, I have to take it again :'(. I have one week to pass. My other classes are ok. I'm doing just fine in those.
Right now, I hate my parents. All I get from them is that everything is my fucking fault? Was it my fault that the tail light on the car fell off? NO it wasn't!!! GOD I hate it at home. Shit from parents, shit being thrown at me from different directions. GOD IM FUCKING STRESSING OUT!!!!
My ex talk to me earlier tonight asking to be friends once again. Right now, I don't know. Why should I trust someone that broke my heart into pieces? I don't trust anyone after everything has happened to me. I don't even trust my own parents. God I wish I was out already and away from all the crap in Manhattan Beach. I lost most of my friends. I used to have a lot, but they are either 1) walked out on me, 2) moved or 3) don't deal with my problems that I have with my brother being sick. I know I still have some depression in me and it still hurts me today.
The highlight of my day was when I got to see my lovely girlfriend Laura. I did some homework while I was there, which was good, then I cuddle with her for about 10 mins, then we went to her drama banquet. It was cool. I met Rebecca. She was cool. She said I didn't give off any weird vibes, which is a good thing because she wasn't gonna kill me or anything. I like her friends. I hope they like me, but its understandable since everett broke Laura's heart really bad.
Trust me, I would NEVER and I mean NEVER hurt Laura. She means a lot to me. I love her so much, I'll die for her if I had to. That's who I am. One crazy S.O.B. who cares about people and loves the person that I'm with. I love you Laura :-*.
Well I have to get back to my take home final...later y'all
Right now, I hate my parents. All I get from them is that everything is my fucking fault? Was it my fault that the tail light on the car fell off? NO it wasn't!!! GOD I hate it at home. Shit from parents, shit being thrown at me from different directions. GOD IM FUCKING STRESSING OUT!!!!
My ex talk to me earlier tonight asking to be friends once again. Right now, I don't know. Why should I trust someone that broke my heart into pieces? I don't trust anyone after everything has happened to me. I don't even trust my own parents. God I wish I was out already and away from all the crap in Manhattan Beach. I lost most of my friends. I used to have a lot, but they are either 1) walked out on me, 2) moved or 3) don't deal with my problems that I have with my brother being sick. I know I still have some depression in me and it still hurts me today.
The highlight of my day was when I got to see my lovely girlfriend Laura. I did some homework while I was there, which was good, then I cuddle with her for about 10 mins, then we went to her drama banquet. It was cool. I met Rebecca. She was cool. She said I didn't give off any weird vibes, which is a good thing because she wasn't gonna kill me or anything. I like her friends. I hope they like me, but its understandable since everett broke Laura's heart really bad.
Trust me, I would NEVER and I mean NEVER hurt Laura. She means a lot to me. I love her so much, I'll die for her if I had to. That's who I am. One crazy S.O.B. who cares about people and loves the person that I'm with. I love you Laura :-*.
Well I have to get back to my take home final...later y'all