"as the words dribbled off of its chin,it said I'm lost "
"Clipside of the pinkeye flight
I'm not the percent you think survives
I need sanctuary in the pages of this book
Gestating with all the other rats
Nurse said that my skin will need a graft
I am of pockmarked shapes
The vermin you need to loathe "
hmmm... not as drunk as I'd liked to be at this point in the night but I can always go and get another drink from downstairs. I had a few gin and tonics tonight. I miss gin and tonic it's been so long since I've had one. I end up a mess but I swear I felt like the lady at the bar only gave me tonic and no gin. I'm listening to the mars volta:
"They used to have pulses in them
But impulse has made them strong
If you only knew the plans they had for us ."
ummm....I cut the dreads out of my hair since I'm going to have it cut tomorrow. I know megan will do something fab. with it. the poor girl has to figure out the right cut and style for me since I'm an idoit when it comes to that stuff. for instance, I don't know how to use a blow dryer, I don't know how to use a straightener, I don't know how to use hair products like moose, hair spray, and I refuse to get up really early to do my hair. I need to be able to style it or put it in a ponytail. I hope she came up with something. I know she did. interview friday. super fucking scary and light brigade audtions sat. and sun. I keep on having these nightmares that I can't catch the flag at all and that I can't dance at all. it's so fucking scary. I don't even know what I'd do if I couldn't spin all the sudden. ( dispite what others think of me and how I'm not good enough to be there. you know who you are and that you said it, so fuck you. I deny your hex and I will fucking rock shit.)
( ummm....gonna go smoke a but, put the mars volta on pause and get another drink.)
ponder this bitch:
Do you recall it's name
As it suggested beck and call
This face and heel
Will drag your halo through the mud
Ash of pompei
Erupting in a statues dust
Shrouded in veils
Because these handcuffs hurt to much
so I'm begining to suspect that someone drank the peach snapps and replaced it with water, because once I added OJ it tasted very diluted, so I fixed it by adding some sloe-gin and now it taste better.
I want to go to the bar with someone. not just any someone, a perticular someone. we used to have fun there and well, what ever. I'm being girlie again. damn it. I know that it should be ok that I'm acting girlie since I am a girl and all but it still bothers me.
took a break from typing to play some spider solitare. and am feeling the drink I made for myself thank good ness. it's so easy to put out your feeling when you feel it's ok and it flows so freely. I like to keep things botteled up just in case, but there are no incases here.
my aunt called me to see if I wanted to go to a tatoo convertion with her this weekend. I wish I could but I can't it would be a blast. I'd prolly come home with a new tatoo if I could go and had the money. so now I know I'll have to save up for next year. me and jimmy were talking about driving down to new orleans for 311 day. that would be a fucking blast. a 311 show in a state I've never been to before and alot of parting to be had. God I hope I can go. winter guard might get in the way. hmmm.... if only 311 day wasn't on 3-11. than I could go cause it wouldn't be in season.
The one last hit that spent you
And you will find
The greatest fucking lie
Of aneurysm vespers
The ones that pile
Up the greatest fucking lies
Knife me in hobbling
Talking in it's sleep again
Knife me in hobbling
Talking in It's sleep again
Virulent hives- of bedpost piles
Virulent hives
Who brought me here
Forsaken,depraved and wrought with fear
Who turned it off
The last thing I remember now
Who brought me here
goodness mars volta I've been ingonring you lately huh. i'm sorry i forgot how fucking amazing you were till now.
so I don't know what to write anymore. I guess that I'll just go till the mood hits me to write more or whatever. so I guess I'm done for now.
I'm not the percent you think survives
I need sanctuary in the pages of this book
Gestating with all the other rats
Nurse said that my skin will need a graft
I am of pockmarked shapes
The vermin you need to loathe "
hmmm... not as drunk as I'd liked to be at this point in the night but I can always go and get another drink from downstairs. I had a few gin and tonics tonight. I miss gin and tonic it's been so long since I've had one. I end up a mess but I swear I felt like the lady at the bar only gave me tonic and no gin. I'm listening to the mars volta:
"They used to have pulses in them
But impulse has made them strong
If you only knew the plans they had for us ."
ummm....I cut the dreads out of my hair since I'm going to have it cut tomorrow. I know megan will do something fab. with it. the poor girl has to figure out the right cut and style for me since I'm an idoit when it comes to that stuff. for instance, I don't know how to use a blow dryer, I don't know how to use a straightener, I don't know how to use hair products like moose, hair spray, and I refuse to get up really early to do my hair. I need to be able to style it or put it in a ponytail. I hope she came up with something. I know she did. interview friday. super fucking scary and light brigade audtions sat. and sun. I keep on having these nightmares that I can't catch the flag at all and that I can't dance at all. it's so fucking scary. I don't even know what I'd do if I couldn't spin all the sudden. ( dispite what others think of me and how I'm not good enough to be there. you know who you are and that you said it, so fuck you. I deny your hex and I will fucking rock shit.)
( ummm....gonna go smoke a but, put the mars volta on pause and get another drink.)
ponder this bitch:
Do you recall it's name
As it suggested beck and call
This face and heel
Will drag your halo through the mud
Ash of pompei
Erupting in a statues dust
Shrouded in veils
Because these handcuffs hurt to much
so I'm begining to suspect that someone drank the peach snapps and replaced it with water, because once I added OJ it tasted very diluted, so I fixed it by adding some sloe-gin and now it taste better.
I want to go to the bar with someone. not just any someone, a perticular someone. we used to have fun there and well, what ever. I'm being girlie again. damn it. I know that it should be ok that I'm acting girlie since I am a girl and all but it still bothers me.
took a break from typing to play some spider solitare. and am feeling the drink I made for myself thank good ness. it's so easy to put out your feeling when you feel it's ok and it flows so freely. I like to keep things botteled up just in case, but there are no incases here.
my aunt called me to see if I wanted to go to a tatoo convertion with her this weekend. I wish I could but I can't it would be a blast. I'd prolly come home with a new tatoo if I could go and had the money. so now I know I'll have to save up for next year. me and jimmy were talking about driving down to new orleans for 311 day. that would be a fucking blast. a 311 show in a state I've never been to before and alot of parting to be had. God I hope I can go. winter guard might get in the way. hmmm.... if only 311 day wasn't on 3-11. than I could go cause it wouldn't be in season.
The one last hit that spent you
And you will find
The greatest fucking lie
Of aneurysm vespers
The ones that pile
Up the greatest fucking lies
Knife me in hobbling
Talking in it's sleep again
Knife me in hobbling
Talking in It's sleep again
Virulent hives- of bedpost piles
Virulent hives
Who brought me here
Forsaken,depraved and wrought with fear
Who turned it off
The last thing I remember now
Who brought me here
goodness mars volta I've been ingonring you lately huh. i'm sorry i forgot how fucking amazing you were till now.
so I don't know what to write anymore. I guess that I'll just go till the mood hits me to write more or whatever. so I guess I'm done for now.