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Here is a good description of how I feel right now:
Callous, whatever, abandoned, misunderstood, angry, upset, what the fuck, worthless, insufficient, failure, cold, indignant, sad, gutted, heartbroken, outcast, stupid, emotional, petty, self-pitying, nauseous. Why.
Clearly I am a failure in every function to everyone. My supervisor thinks I act superior and lazy. The dean at my school thinks I am a failure. My friends think I am not worth the time. My parents think I am entitled and greedy. My sister thinks I am self-pitying, I have rolls of fat, my hair is falling out,my breasts are sagging, my skin looks like pizza, I am exhausted and barely keeping up with school and I am an all around mess. I wouldn't want me as a friend either. I am going to see a therapist today at 2 because I am afraid that without prompt action I am going to my mess up my son's life. Wouldn't want my emotional garbage to negatively affect one more human, especially my Sebastian.
Here's hoping that I'm not a total waste of space. I don't even care what people think because I just can't have a lower opinion of myself than I already have.
Callous, whatever, abandoned, misunderstood, angry, upset, what the fuck, worthless, insufficient, failure, cold, indignant, sad, gutted, heartbroken, outcast, stupid, emotional, petty, self-pitying, nauseous. Why.
Clearly I am a failure in every function to everyone. My supervisor thinks I act superior and lazy. The dean at my school thinks I am a failure. My friends think I am not worth the time. My parents think I am entitled and greedy. My sister thinks I am self-pitying, I have rolls of fat, my hair is falling out,my breasts are sagging, my skin looks like pizza, I am exhausted and barely keeping up with school and I am an all around mess. I wouldn't want me as a friend either. I am going to see a therapist today at 2 because I am afraid that without prompt action I am going to my mess up my son's life. Wouldn't want my emotional garbage to negatively affect one more human, especially my Sebastian.
Here's hoping that I'm not a total waste of space. I don't even care what people think because I just can't have a lower opinion of myself than I already have.