Work Woes
So, I've decided to take what I hope will prove to be a positive step in the long run, and cut down my days at work. This will mean less pay, but in our current situation it might prove to be a good thing. Best not to ask unless you actually want to know how broken the system is.
Ultimately this will give me more "me" time in the truest sense. Despite taking what could certainly be casually observed as me time quite regularly, it can be broken down into the following categories:
-Weekend - feeling compelled to do useful things around the place, not wanting to because I want me time to figure things out, feeling upset because I'm not being helpful enough
-Working from home - often less productive than perhaps it should be, which theoretically gives me a bit more me time, but the fact that any me time I take leaves me feeling guilty makes it pretty rubbish
-Off sick - feeling guilty because I'm off sick, feeling like I can't do anything overtly fun in case anyone sees me having fun while off sick, useless time
It might not seem neccessary to anyone reading this, or maybe you do understand. Either way, I've recognised a need and I'm going for it. In time it will prove to be either the best decision I've made for a long time, or a vastness of indifference I can't bring myself to be concerned over at this time. Win win.
And now, back to learning about BMC Capacity Optimization and Integration Studio. Naturally I don't feel particularly enthusiastic, which is odd given that smashing data into pieces and figuring out new systems are two of my favourite things in principle. All I can think about right now is passing the time until I get to leave, which is not very productive.
And now (really) back to attempting to be a positive working citizen.
Ultimately this will give me more "me" time in the truest sense. Despite taking what could certainly be casually observed as me time quite regularly, it can be broken down into the following categories:
-Weekend - feeling compelled to do useful things around the place, not wanting to because I want me time to figure things out, feeling upset because I'm not being helpful enough
-Working from home - often less productive than perhaps it should be, which theoretically gives me a bit more me time, but the fact that any me time I take leaves me feeling guilty makes it pretty rubbish
-Off sick - feeling guilty because I'm off sick, feeling like I can't do anything overtly fun in case anyone sees me having fun while off sick, useless time
It might not seem neccessary to anyone reading this, or maybe you do understand. Either way, I've recognised a need and I'm going for it. In time it will prove to be either the best decision I've made for a long time, or a vastness of indifference I can't bring myself to be concerned over at this time. Win win.
And now, back to learning about BMC Capacity Optimization and Integration Studio. Naturally I don't feel particularly enthusiastic, which is odd given that smashing data into pieces and figuring out new systems are two of my favourite things in principle. All I can think about right now is passing the time until I get to leave, which is not very productive.
And now (really) back to attempting to be a positive working citizen.