you would kill for this, just a little bit
arg arg arg.
I've been spoiled and now I want more.
Toledo disgusts me. It's a stagnant city of waste to me. Just decaying over itself like an abandoned wasteland. The people here aren't any better. They look like zombies to me, just taking what's handed to them instead of living for themselves and pursuing better things. The city lights even look like a tangled mess of Christmas lights, carelessly strewn about the horizon. A failure of a city. Almost a constant reminder of how I need to get out of here before I turn into a zombie tangled in the lights with no hope of getting out and living life, being happy, or having any kind of a future. It makes me wonder about how much I've already missed out on.
But at least there's a cure for me. Pittsburgh. It's amazing, awesome, astounding, .. basically any "A" adjective with well meaning I can throw out there. It's just so fantastical that I wont even try to explain it. I can't. I understand what Alex means by there being no words to describe it, and I want it back. I miss it, and I miss Alex. He's crazy and fun and one day I'll find out why he doesn't like chalk... GRR you! haha
It's so beautiful, I spent almost 3 hours one day just staring at the view of the city. But who can't help but stare when they see something so wonderful?...
I honestly don't even care anymore about anything out here. All I can do is count the days til I can go back, that's all I have to look forward to. Right now it's all I care about.
I knew I'd like it out there, but this much?
I've been spoiled and now I want more.
Toledo disgusts me. It's a stagnant city of waste to me. Just decaying over itself like an abandoned wasteland. The people here aren't any better. They look like zombies to me, just taking what's handed to them instead of living for themselves and pursuing better things. The city lights even look like a tangled mess of Christmas lights, carelessly strewn about the horizon. A failure of a city. Almost a constant reminder of how I need to get out of here before I turn into a zombie tangled in the lights with no hope of getting out and living life, being happy, or having any kind of a future. It makes me wonder about how much I've already missed out on.
But at least there's a cure for me. Pittsburgh. It's amazing, awesome, astounding, .. basically any "A" adjective with well meaning I can throw out there. It's just so fantastical that I wont even try to explain it. I can't. I understand what Alex means by there being no words to describe it, and I want it back. I miss it, and I miss Alex. He's crazy and fun and one day I'll find out why he doesn't like chalk... GRR you! haha
It's so beautiful, I spent almost 3 hours one day just staring at the view of the city. But who can't help but stare when they see something so wonderful?...
I honestly don't even care anymore about anything out here. All I can do is count the days til I can go back, that's all I have to look forward to. Right now it's all I care about.
I knew I'd like it out there, but this much?