meh
valentines day 06'...
I am so indifferent about that fuckin day. I think to myself, "its just a hallmark holiday so meh." but thats just what people say when they dont have someone to spend it with. I talked to sarah for the first time in like a month today too, she wished me a happy valentines day, and I just dont know if I miss her or if I dont really care. I chilled with her once at the beginning of winter break, she was wearing the necklace ($150) I got her during the summer. We had a damn good time while we were chillin and I was supposed to call her a couple days later but I didnt... I dont really know why, either. we are so different and I dunno if our relationship had any real qualities to begin with. who knows.
I need to tell people more when things bother me. I was really upset about a few things that happened during winter break, and when the person(s) had asked me if it bothered me I made up some bogus excuse that I didnt feel well. People know when they piss me off but not if they upset me... wierd I know.
I haven't talked to courtney since the end of break either. I dunno what it is about her, but it seems like I am only her friend when shes in need of my friendship. I sometimes wonder why I put up with it, shes done some really gay shit... granted shes appologized and errthang but my philosophy regarding appologies is that u try ur hardest to not make the same mistake.
I am also regretting a lot of mistakes I have made recently... and it doesn't help things.
btw sarah just imed me telling me about her date!!! thanks god.
I am so indifferent about that fuckin day. I think to myself, "its just a hallmark holiday so meh." but thats just what people say when they dont have someone to spend it with. I talked to sarah for the first time in like a month today too, she wished me a happy valentines day, and I just dont know if I miss her or if I dont really care. I chilled with her once at the beginning of winter break, she was wearing the necklace ($150) I got her during the summer. We had a damn good time while we were chillin and I was supposed to call her a couple days later but I didnt... I dont really know why, either. we are so different and I dunno if our relationship had any real qualities to begin with. who knows.
I need to tell people more when things bother me. I was really upset about a few things that happened during winter break, and when the person(s) had asked me if it bothered me I made up some bogus excuse that I didnt feel well. People know when they piss me off but not if they upset me... wierd I know.
I haven't talked to courtney since the end of break either. I dunno what it is about her, but it seems like I am only her friend when shes in need of my friendship. I sometimes wonder why I put up with it, shes done some really gay shit... granted shes appologized and errthang but my philosophy regarding appologies is that u try ur hardest to not make the same mistake.
I am also regretting a lot of mistakes I have made recently... and it doesn't help things.
btw sarah just imed me telling me about her date!!! thanks god.