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The other night(Monday)I had the worst nightmare i've had in ages. I actually woke up scared shitless and looking around the room with a cold shiver running down my spine. I tried pressing my back hard against the bed to make it disappear, it wasn't till 15 minutes later when I had convinced myself everything was allright that I could relieve my back from it's pressurized state in the mattress. I think this is a nightmare that I would definately only share with some close close friends. I told T in the morning of how freaked I was by it, but I dont' know, couldn't stomach telling him about the nightmare. It wouldn't make sense to some people. All I know is the nightmare started out as a really good dream and then it just turned horrible and the one thing I hated the most is that there was nothing I could do, the feeling of helpless and hopelessness. And everyone else who was with me ran and wouldn't help me.
Today started out okay, did some math hw. Then cleaned house a lil. T got back and I went swimming. It's kind of depressing for me, recently i've had a little bit of spare time but nothing to do with it. I mean I could play games, read a book or exercise but I just want to hang with somebody but nobody I know lives close by. Today was just an off day, been upset or depressed most the day. I need to stop thinking so much. A guy saw me yesterday night before Creative writing class and asked me if I was allright, just lost deep in thought and thinking entirely too much.
Dear Ian (or nickname if applicable),
You have a cute ______.
You make me _______.
You should _______.
Someday I will ______.
You + me =________.
If I saw you now I'd __________.
I would build a _______ just for you.
I would get your name tattooed on my __________.
If I could sing you any song it would be _________.
We could __________ under the stars.
My love for you is like that of ____________.
Love,
_______________
(P.S. ______________.)
Today started out okay, did some math hw. Then cleaned house a lil. T got back and I went swimming. It's kind of depressing for me, recently i've had a little bit of spare time but nothing to do with it. I mean I could play games, read a book or exercise but I just want to hang with somebody but nobody I know lives close by. Today was just an off day, been upset or depressed most the day. I need to stop thinking so much. A guy saw me yesterday night before Creative writing class and asked me if I was allright, just lost deep in thought and thinking entirely too much.
Dear Ian (or nickname if applicable),
You have a cute ______.
You make me _______.
You should _______.
Someday I will ______.
You + me =________.
If I saw you now I'd __________.
I would build a _______ just for you.
I would get your name tattooed on my __________.
If I could sing you any song it would be _________.
We could __________ under the stars.
My love for you is like that of ____________.
Love,
_______________
(P.S. ______________.)