music, school and God
bonjours...
just came from my Christmas concert at school...it was kick-butt!! well, for a high school Christmas concert that is. it went extremely well, except for some major gaffs on the sound...the sound was crappy, but what can ya do? Rebeka sang Ave Maria with the senior band and she was amaaaaaazzzing!!! absolutely flawless. i am so proud to have her as my friend.
i've just come from a strain of acedemic struggle..it always seems that something huge is due in three days, but you fail to see it because it's importance is over-shadowed by that which is due tomorrow. i am happy to say though that i had my big math test today, along with the assignment, and i did reasonably well on both of those, so two less things to worry about. tomorrow 2/3 of my french isu is due, which pretty well just means organising my poster on Benin and editing my french story. no big deal. friday, 1/2 of my physics isu is due which isn't too big---700-1400 words-worth on fuel cells produced by Ballard Power Systems. i've got about 560 words, so tomorrow i shall finish that and attach the biblioraphy.
lately my Spiritual life has been interesting...it's really quite simple: get down with the love of God, seek it purposefully, and so much will fall into place. my foundation is slipping, and when that happens the stuff built on top either comes crashing down of becomes shallow and fake. i am so lazy...i know with dedication i'll do the right thing, but i lack disciple is the right areas. another thing: i've decided i no longer belong to a religion. Religions make God too small. You might believe God is this way and i might believe God is that way, so we all decide who we think God is and leave it at that. and to us, that's who God is. uh...no. God's the one who exists outside of time right? He already Was far before and beyond when we ever decided "this is who God is to me." God is God. period. and if i were asked "Well then who is He?" The best and only thing i can say is "i don't know" because its ridiculous to even presume that we'd be able to understand God. we think we can fit Him into our logic, but i'm beginning to learn that we can't. There are some huge questions in life, about hell and suffering and homosexuality, to name some examples, in which God seems to either contradict Himself, not explain Himself, or flat-out lie. He doesn't do any of those things. we don't get it, and we can't because our logic is too small. the only truly complex things we can understand are the things He chooses to show us. I think we take God for granted sometimes. Like, not just dying on the croos, forgiveness, love, and all that kind of stuff...but to think that a God who has to be that big can and would fit inside if us? like i've accept who God is all my life withouth question, but now i'm actually stopping to think about it and try and figure it out in a miniscule way. but it's crazy.
Newayz, enough with my ranting and raving, i must be off....but one thing could someone please tell me how Facebook works? i've got an account now and whatnot, but i don't get what it's for. like is it a blog like livejournal and Myspace? or is it just like a calender that just says who's joined and when everbody's birthdays are. arrrrrgh. someone please tell me!
agh, guh-night.
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