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it's beginning to feel a lot NOT like christmas....every where, I go....
yeah sad, I know.
I haven't updated anything in here foreva!
shame.
what to even update about? my life is a waiting game right now, everything is pretty temporary, though provided for, so I am thankful for that.
Why doesn't it feel like christmas this year? Every year it comes faster and faster and feels less "magical" or whatever. this christmas is so different than last year's, its funny to think back and remember what was happening in my life then. a relationship just beginning to form, some other important stepping stones and decisions being made, watching 24 like nonstop with my family!!! hah. well, this year's isn't worse, not better either though. just different. and, a lot more quiet. no intense, twitterpated "love" is blossoming, and many friends have been MIA, under the weather, married, working, whatever. so weird how life changes. Although I know its inevitable, I am always still shocked when changes wash over me. Trying REALLY really hard to not see them so negatively though...
on a different note, this year will be the first new years I spend NOT in PA, but rather in LA. I wonder what that will bring?
but yes, a lot of milestones have been reached. a lot of wounds I never thought would heal or at least decrease in size and pain have.
Thanks for that one Jesus.
yeah sad, I know.
I haven't updated anything in here foreva!
shame.
what to even update about? my life is a waiting game right now, everything is pretty temporary, though provided for, so I am thankful for that.
Why doesn't it feel like christmas this year? Every year it comes faster and faster and feels less "magical" or whatever. this christmas is so different than last year's, its funny to think back and remember what was happening in my life then. a relationship just beginning to form, some other important stepping stones and decisions being made, watching 24 like nonstop with my family!!! hah. well, this year's isn't worse, not better either though. just different. and, a lot more quiet. no intense, twitterpated "love" is blossoming, and many friends have been MIA, under the weather, married, working, whatever. so weird how life changes. Although I know its inevitable, I am always still shocked when changes wash over me. Trying REALLY really hard to not see them so negatively though...
on a different note, this year will be the first new years I spend NOT in PA, but rather in LA. I wonder what that will bring?
but yes, a lot of milestones have been reached. a lot of wounds I never thought would heal or at least decrease in size and pain have.
Thanks for that one Jesus.