then again maybe not? i hate this
dude...i'm so torn. half the people i talk to are all "good for you!" about this move. they're great with it, they offer me their support in it and they tell me that you know, they'll miss me and that it's not going to change everything, but they want me to go out and do what i want.
then i have the people who just criticize criticize bitch bitch etc etc...a lot of "you'll never make it" and shit like that. it's depressing, it's crushing...it makes me want to go that much more to just get away from the negativity here, but at the same time, again...i know they're probably right.
oh dammit, what the fuck? am i seriously going to do this to myself and stay here? i can either be here and unsatisfied or i can leave and be unsatisfied. i've already said so many goodbyes...and i don't want to be that person who's like "well surprise! i'm too chicken shit to go so i'm staying! hello again!"
gawd, fuck this.
idunno about this anymore. someone please just tell me what to do...
dammit.
i think the deciding thing is gonna be my dad...his reaction...
[sigh] this is so hard
then i have the people who just criticize criticize bitch bitch etc etc...a lot of "you'll never make it" and shit like that. it's depressing, it's crushing...it makes me want to go that much more to just get away from the negativity here, but at the same time, again...i know they're probably right.
oh dammit, what the fuck? am i seriously going to do this to myself and stay here? i can either be here and unsatisfied or i can leave and be unsatisfied. i've already said so many goodbyes...and i don't want to be that person who's like "well surprise! i'm too chicken shit to go so i'm staying! hello again!"
gawd, fuck this.
idunno about this anymore. someone please just tell me what to do...
dammit.
i think the deciding thing is gonna be my dad...his reaction...
[sigh] this is so hard