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i just typed this whole entry and it disappeared on me...fuck.
here we go then, starting over (how ironic!)
i am starting over. i am leaving. i don't know where i am going, when i am going (aside from soon) or if i am coming back. i don't know how i'm going to get there or what i'm going to do but i do know that i am GOING. it's either going to be the dumbest desicion i'll ever make or the best. odds are i'll never be able to just leave and stay away. i could never say goodbye to my dad...
i did say goodbye to dave today, and a few others. i think that was the hardest thing i have ever done in my life, i have never cried more...i'm half happy and half sad, i don't know what i feel anymore.
i hate doing this, really. but i really want to get OUT of here. yeah, i'm running away and i'm probably just kicking my own ass and i'll be back home after a few months. but i just have to try...
alex is currently crushing this whole plan. darry did the same thing last night. all that's doing is making it harder to leave, but it's not going to make me stay. it's just more negative air around here, all the more reason to get out.
man...there is just too much here that i don't want to be a part of anymore. what the hell? i hate this, i should have never told anyone, including everyone now with this entry...
i should have just fucking left. i just really wanted to say goodbye...
smile everyone, and take care of yourselves and if you wanna say a goodbye then feel free. just don't pull an alex and be an asshole about it. i won't be gone for a bit anyways, i gotta get ready and all =) anyway...
peace,
drea
here we go then, starting over (how ironic!)
i am starting over. i am leaving. i don't know where i am going, when i am going (aside from soon) or if i am coming back. i don't know how i'm going to get there or what i'm going to do but i do know that i am GOING. it's either going to be the dumbest desicion i'll ever make or the best. odds are i'll never be able to just leave and stay away. i could never say goodbye to my dad...
i did say goodbye to dave today, and a few others. i think that was the hardest thing i have ever done in my life, i have never cried more...i'm half happy and half sad, i don't know what i feel anymore.
i hate doing this, really. but i really want to get OUT of here. yeah, i'm running away and i'm probably just kicking my own ass and i'll be back home after a few months. but i just have to try...
alex is currently crushing this whole plan. darry did the same thing last night. all that's doing is making it harder to leave, but it's not going to make me stay. it's just more negative air around here, all the more reason to get out.
man...there is just too much here that i don't want to be a part of anymore. what the hell? i hate this, i should have never told anyone, including everyone now with this entry...
i should have just fucking left. i just really wanted to say goodbye...
smile everyone, and take care of yourselves and if you wanna say a goodbye then feel free. just don't pull an alex and be an asshole about it. i won't be gone for a bit anyways, i gotta get ready and all =) anyway...
peace,
drea